bliss
January 8th, 2006
i mentioned before that i hate wasting time. that’s perhaps one of the most defining things about me, even though i procrastinate a lot and sometimes indulge in giving myself a few hours a week to ‘waste’ — just simply lying on my bed and staring at the ceiling or mindlessly flipping thru whatever girly-mag i have lying on the floor.
then after i do that i mentally kick myself for wasting perfectly good time that could have been devoted to something more productive.
i know, it’s so weird, this machine-like go-do-something obsessive compulsion. it gets especially bad during the times i’ve got a project going on, or whenever there are major exams, or just something to complete that needs to meet a looming deadline. those are the times i barely breathe, and my mind is but one-tracked : finish finish finish.
but however insane my schedule, however little time i have left, no matter how late i am to meet a friend who’s been waiting for two hours, i never ever compromise my shower time.
haha! :D
i love taking showers. it’s the ultimate destressant, and even sleep cant beat this one for me. whenever i’m having a bad day, i just want to go home and take a shower. it’s almost therapeutic — that feeling of standing under hot running water, closing your eyes, and just letting the water seep into you. feeling the warmth as it envelopes around you tightly. i swear there’s something Freudian about this.
everytime i need to think, i take a shower. i’ll sit cross-legged on the blue tiles with my chin in my palm and just think away while the water pours on from above. sometimes i sit in there up to an hour until i finally reach a conclusion to my dilemmas.. and when i do, it feels like the best conclusion i’ve ever reached or the best decision i ever made.
i mean come on now, you cant tell me you dont like showers. the sensation of having warm water run through your scalp and soaking your hair, onto your close eyelids, down your neck and onto your shoulders all the way downnnnnn past every inch of your skin — it’s as if it’s carrying with it all your troubles and leaving in its wake a very sensual glow of comfortable vulnerability. i love it.
when i cry in the shower it feels less painful too, for some odd reason. crying in my bed under the covers gives me such a sense of loneliness, and desperation, because it’s just me in the quiet stillness of my room. my sobs just sound so much more amplified and makes it sound like a corean horror movie soundtrack is playing within the walls. needless to say i shut up pretty quickly and thus never really get to let out all the frustration. but crying in the shower is different. the noise of the water as it hits the tiles and the roar of the shower’s blast in your ears just makes you feel less alone. and more insignificant somehow. which is good for the times you want to just melt away into nothingness.
edit: okay show’s over .. :D
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1. Vicnan | January 8th, 2006 at 2:38 am
I like cold showers. I love cold showers.
And yes. Showers and chocolate are my indulgences.
And there’s nothing strange about not wanting to waste time, on being OCD-ish.
I hope.
2. tzeching | January 8th, 2006 at 2:53 am
aren’t cold showers for wet dreams? haha.. one tree hill. =p
anyways. i don’t like bathing. cuz when you bathe, u waste time. =p but after a long tiring day, a hoott shower is just what gets you to relax and unwind. especially if you’re using the passionfruit body shop shower gel. yummy.
and. that pic is ssseeexxxyyy. you’re so going to get comments on that. =p
3. kawa | January 8th, 2006 at 4:50 am
I love hot showers too. Sometimes I just wish I can take it forever. haha
4. Bunnie | January 8th, 2006 at 5:48 am
Personally, I’m more of a bath person but yeah, it is true. The feeling of being in the shower feels like it is somehow taking everything you have away, it is a great feeling.
Lol, not gonna comment on the pic.. u’ll get it from everyone else! Meh!
5. alvin | January 8th, 2006 at 7:04 am
pau, try bubble bath too if you have the chance. A great stress-reliever.
6. jr | January 8th, 2006 at 8:29 am
You made me waste a slice of cake =
7. Marianne | January 8th, 2006 at 9:15 am
Hey Su Ann,
Read your post about love and such.. I used to be a very romantic person.. and who wants all these things.. but I think my hellish past of cheating ex’s have made me perhaps slightly cynical, but at least I am careful. In the end, I just want someone truthful. And you know what? the only way you’ll know is through time and through effort. Truth and love needs to be earned. It’s not just that easy .. and I don’t think it should be. Weren’t we taught that hard work brings good results? As long as its not work thats wasting time and effort.. then it’s fine. Just thought I’d give my two cents.. I love the idea of romance.. and all that… but just be picky and choose wisely. I will leave you with this…
Just because no one has been fortunate enough to realize what a gold mine you are, doesn’t mean you shine any less.
Just because no one has been smart enough to figure out that you can’t be topped, doesn’t stop you from being the best.
Just because no one has come along to share your life, doesn’t mean that day isn’t coming.
Just because no one has made this race worthwhile, doesn’t give you permission to stop running.
Just because no one has realized how much of a woman you are, doesn’t mean they can affect your femininity.
Just because no one has come to take the loneliness away, doesn’t mean you have to settle for a lower quality.
Just because no one has shown up who can love you on your level, doesn’t mean you have to sink to theirs.
Just because you deserve the very best there is, doesn’t mean that life is always fair.
Just because God is still preparing your king, doesn’t mean that you’re not already a queen.
Just because your situation doesn’t seem to be progressing right now, doesn’t mean you need to change a thing.
Keep shining, keep running, keep hoping, keep praying, Keep being exactly what you are already; complete.
Love,
Marianne
8. george | January 8th, 2006 at 10:06 am
wow, whats with being topless these days? :D lol
9. passerby | January 8th, 2006 at 10:33 am
holy crap i think i just came all over my keyboard. more shower pics please!
10. Charlie | January 8th, 2006 at 2:17 pm
zomgnudies!!!!
11. kristof | January 8th, 2006 at 3:14 pm
hot damn. showers
12. me. | January 8th, 2006 at 7:19 pm
dont know why… but am so not used to seeing you in this picture. :P
13. vvens | January 8th, 2006 at 8:08 pm
nice light effect of your picture.
i love hot bath and hated cold wan. and yeah, it feels better when you cry in showers than on bed. Y_Y
14. pinkpau | January 8th, 2006 at 8:55 pm
vicnan : great :D i’m comforted!
tzeching : omg! body shop soaps rock :D am currently alternating between their grapeseed and their peach. lovelyyy!
kawa : i know what u mean!
bunnie : hehe, it’s the awesomest feeling isnt it!
alvin : dont have a bathtub here :(
jr : what kind of cake? i’ll apologize if it was good cake .. :D
marianne : that was beautiful :) *hugs!* wise words that i will always remember.
george : my sun roof wasnt leaking tho .. !
passerby : maybe some other time :)
charlie : omgpwnz!
kristof : dont u just love showers!
me : ahaha yeah me either :D
vvens : ahah it was normal bathroom light. hot showers rock!
15. justakid | January 8th, 2006 at 9:11 pm
i agree. crying in the shower feels much less .. awful. sighy. oh well.
16. Johann | January 9th, 2006 at 5:55 am
Awww… you removed the pic? :P
17. Cheryl | January 9th, 2006 at 6:52 am
lol…where’s the pic?? Luckily I did read your post earlier :P Otherwise I would have missed a “visually stunning” picture!!???
Bet that you’ll love bubble bath….
Hm….your post just made me recall the way japanese bathe…..
18. scott | January 9th, 2006 at 8:32 am
Now that the pic is gone, everyone will be crying in the shower.
19. pinkpau | January 9th, 2006 at 12:57 pm
justakid : thank God for showers ..!
johann : yes i did you old man :D
cheryl : took it down .. too much of exposure to any one thing is never good! hmm. how DO the japanese bathe?
scott : oh go moderate a forum troll, you! :D
20. laziicat | January 10th, 2006 at 1:48 pm
i wanna see that shower picture…pretty please…
21. pinkpau | January 12th, 2006 at 3:27 am
nhu : haha its gone now!
22. Cheryl | January 12th, 2006 at 3:40 am
If you go to a typical average japanese family…..er…everyone shower individually sitting on a small chair next to the bath tub. Then each of them will then soak themselve in the hot bath tub for as long as they want ler….then only their bath is done. The thing is…they soak in the same pool of tub water one after another….. o.O
23. pinkpau | January 14th, 2006 at 5:18 am
cheryl : haha yes i’ve heard .. :D
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