We Need A Happy Pill

there’s been something off with me for the past couple of days. i cant quite place my finger on what it is. i dont know what’s wrong, i dont know how things are different, and i dont know why it’s like that. i just feel weird. sorta like, like a snake shedding skin. an excited snake, cos i get to break out of something stifling, and leave it behind, but then at the same time, a sad snake, cos i sorta miss the old skin. and i feel like i havent done enough with it. but it’s too late for thoughts like that now, cos what’s done is done. what’s gone is gone. with my new skin, i cant possibly crawl back into the old. it wouldnt take me.

anyway, it’s of the utmost importance that i’m happy this month. just because. so i’ve been trying desperately to shake off this weird mood. i tried baking (finally got new measuring cups!!!) but i only got more annoyed because i’ve now reached my tolerance limit of the smell of chocolate or butter or vanilla essence. you bakers know what i’m talking about. yeah. that sickly cloying cloudy feeling that you get in your head when you finish baking. argh. anyway. did brownies and peanut butter muffins.

the brownies turned out as they usually do (meaning, very damn good, heehee!), only i served them with peanuts this time. i think everyone who knows me is tired of my brownies by now. but i dont care. if i bake means you eat it!!! >:O meanwhile, the peanut butter muffins were okay only la. i wouldnt use the recipe again.

but, no, good mood still not in sight. not even after i camwhored with Superman.

but then i went out with Ivan and we did something fun :D *wiggles eyebrows* that made me smile and skip around like a loony bunny for a bit. betcha cant guess what it is!! will update post when i get the pictures back. meanwhile, i’ll give you a brownie if you can guess what we did. ivan, you shaddup ah. you are disqualified from playing.

Comments June 5th, 2006