yesterday, i was looking through some of my old blogposts at the tripod blog. while reading, i came across this one post i wrote in August last year, when i was still in high school. i remember while writing that post, i was just so filled with a deep sense of oracular nostalgia. it was a big rush of emotion - like all the wistfulness i would feel in the future when reminiscing about my classmates and our schooldays, was concentrated on that very moment.
this is the post :
i’m a spoilt girl. a very pampered girl, who DOES realize that she has many security blankets in life. when i leave form5, all those security blankets are gonna be ripped off me, and when i think about that happening, i feel like just clinging on to that stupid yellow pillar in the school foyer that i walked into and apologised to sometime 3 years ago, and never letting go.
tis funny. just a month ago i was telling sieutheng how i cant wait to finish school and be rid of all the crap sri garden makes u endure.
i will so freaking struggle in college. what am i gonna do without AIRA?! who’s gonna tell me what homework there was? who’s gonna, like, wake me up when i sleep during class? who’s gonna set me back on the right path when i stray away?! argghgghgh!! aiiiiiraaa, dont leave me …!!
and jovann. what will i do without him! i will never have lunch money like for ever. and i will have no scratching post when he’s not here :( no jovann, no bitchy gossip too. life will be so much more bleaker. besides, who will discuss with me the right Chanel facial cleanser to use, and who will tell me when Zara is having a sale?! every girl needs her metrosexual best friend for fashion and beauty advice.
of course there is mah beloved frog, sieutheng. without her, i will never feel physically wanted ever again. no one will molest me the way she does. sniff. and she’s the only lala i know who can take all lala-bashing-inclined verbal abuse with an open heart. losing her also means losing a confidante :(
4 Of Them + 4 Of Us
to the ‘4 Of Them’ — rebecca, sze yin, christine, bev — what are the 4 Of Us without you girls! let’s hookup with The Other Two and go out for a 4+4+2 thing one day before school ends. sy, i will miss ur bitchiness — you make gossip that little bit more fascinating. rebecca, i’ll always remember you as the cutest blurrest girl in the world. christine, u’re really noisy sometimes but that’s what makes u cool. you’re the life of wherever u go. beverly, my sleeping-in-class partner in crime … the only other person in the world who understands the dire need to shut your eyes when a teacher is at the front of the class.
wai min, wai min. my inspiration in all that i do, and the younger sister i never had. let’s never grow apart.
i bet college life has no popcorn-couples. annjoeanddarren, chaoyingandhaowkang, jinhangandshushen — i will miss watching you guys fight! i’ll miss telling y’all to get a room.
freddy ……….. our 1 year anniversary is coming up soon, hahahaha. i know you know what i’m talking about.
justin. i have a confession to make — i think you have the nicest smile in the world. here’s another — i secretly look at you a lot. because you’re sooo cute.
and my wacky girl patricia. i’m glad you came to sri garden this year. it’s nice to have another net-addict in class, who blogs and makes LJ icons and visits potterpuppetpals.com as well ;) you’re totally awesome. and one of a kind.
i just have to leave Mole Boy till last. when you first came to ssg, i thought you were this really shy, quiet boy who runs away at the sight of a girl. you were so SHY and SCARED when we first started talking! and omg, look at you now. perasan muka tak malu boy. and ergh, stop getting straight a’s!! it’s so annoying!!
the class
it’s 7.20 now and i think i better go do my homework before i get a fail for my forecast. ah, homework. there’s something i wont miss when i finish school.
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it’s a little over one year since i wrote that post. at that time, i was so convinced that once high school ends and we start college, we’d all go our separate ways and barely communicate. i am SO GLAD to find that now, one year later, that’s not true at all. if anything, a lot of us are closer to each other despite meeting up less. looks like my oracular nostalgia was not very oracular, hehe not that i’m complaining.
the differences now - aira is away in UTP Perak studying chem engineering and we almost never see her. annjoe and darren, aka Couple Most Likely To Get Married, have split .. and so have chaoying and haowkang. jinhang and shushen are still together though - they’re the new Couple Most Likely To Get Married now! i havent seen patricia in forever, and Mole Boy is far away in canada.
what has not changed - i still look at justin a lot. hahaha.
today a bunch of us met up at Darren’s place for a little mooncake festival gathering! most people couldnt turn up cos bloody Darren lives in the middle of nowhere … so at first i was quite bummed about it. but then five minutes into the evening, i was really glad that there were only 8 of us instead of the pre-planned 15. conversation was so much nicer and comfy and warmer that way. it was a lurvely night :)
… even though i wasnt allowed to eat mooncakes and darren’s famous banana cake -_- haha my friends are so cool. they’re even stricter with me about Project Puasa than i am!!!
anyways, pictures!
slices of mooncakes! :( i could only pose with them and take pics of them, sniff.
ivan and i
penguin and i!
the boys
The Four Of Us minus aira :(
with darren, Mr Nice Guy of the Century and Mr I Live Too Damn Far Away From Civilization
top row l-r : freddy, justin, ivan, me, jovann. bottom row l-r : ben, sieutheng, darren
aira, faster come back so we can take a 4+1 pic!
ben being emo
umbrellas hate ben
September 30th, 2006
only 3 days without sweet stuff and already i’m as cranky as hell. i’m beginning to wonder if i should be kind to myself by allowing sweet treats after 7ish pm, instead of an all-out month-long elimination. i mean, that’s what puasa REALLY is right - breaking fast at dusk??
this is harder than i thought. i never realized just how much dessert my daily diet consisted of! urgh, i’m at starbucks now, and earlier at the counter, i ordered a java chip frapp without even thinking. it was only when the dude asked what size frapp i wanted, did i go, eh wait frappucinos are sort of like dessert! i cant have it!
so yeah. starbucks has the fucking grossest-tasting green tea in the whole wide world.
September 26th, 2006
17+1 restaurants
verve pipe - freshman
spilt ice cream in cars
connaught dim sum at 6am
sucky mont kiara breakfasts
shoe-shopping
takjadi-ness at tamarind hill
baileys and vodka lime
reading msn chat history
always being late for movies
missing harry potter 4 the first time
getting it right the second time
diamond earrings
irish stew and deepfried mushrooms
guitar amps
haagen dazs on your patio
100 roses on valentines
steak, steak, steak and more steak
PGL
blinking in photographs
offsides
long talks in the car on the way to subang at 4 in the morning
pink paris hilton wallets
your hot brother, haha
‘peanuts’ at cynna
blue checkered shirts
christmas 2005 at westin
your allergy to books
jenna jameson
coke vs diet coke
ampang mcdonalds drivethrough with jeremy
yam cha at plaza damas
old men’s birthdays at finnegans in hartamas
oversleeping and missing superman returns!
tong yuen in ginger soup at ss2
prefects smoking weed in school toilets
one tree hill
hoobastank - the reason
petaling street
lock stock and two smoking barrels
green street holigans with one o, not two
rhythm and *blues*
alexis tiramisu
halloween 2005 at tgif (remember the babes?)
ribena pastilles
STOP using my ringtone
hey does tiffin bay count?
little leprechauns who give out shamrocks
the camper
the day you thought you lost your brother’s atm card. or wait, was it something else?
amex vs visa
PJ boy who hangs out in cheras, cheras girl who hangs out in PJ
pete tong, who??
camwhoring in starbucks
that stupid pizza hut waiter
that last oreo mcflurry..
what should have happened but never did : serendipity on dvd, koh samui, you teaching me to drive, a kiss.
what ABSOLUTELY has to happen in the future : backpacking in europe!
here’s to 1.5 years of knowing each other :) may there be many more baileys and vodka lime nights to come.
September 25th, 2006
and so ramadhan month is upon us once again! for one whole month beginning today, muslims worldwide will be observing the religious practice of fasting from daybreak till sundown. no food, no drink, no sex, no cigarettes, no nuthin’ in any natural orifices.
a long time ago, aira explained to me the reasons behind this muslim practice. firstly, she says, it is to seek closeness to God by relinquishing food and drink - two daily necessities that may distract you from seeking God lest you overindulge. secondly, it’s so that muslims will know for a month what it feels like to be a poor man who cannot afford to eat. this encourages charity, kindness, empathy and a general sense of fellowship in God.
damn noble. i’ve always been so impressed by that.
so! guess what i’m going to do this ramadhan month?!
i’m going to fast as well!
muahahahaha.
at first i had trouble deciding what i was going to give up. it ought to be my biggest addiction.
SO I SHOULD GIVE UP THE INTERNET.
i was very gung ho about the idea for like 2 seconds, then rationale and common sense took over and i realized that there is absolutely no way i can give up the internet for one whole month. wtf am i supposed to do??? not check my email for a month? give up busybodying at other people’s blogs? how can i not imdb a movie after watching one? how am i going to read my news? give up googling and wikipediaing? NO WAY WHERE CAN NEXT IDEA PLEASE KTHXBAI!
then it was suggested that i give up taking cabs cos i’m so reliant on them. i had to meet Yoe at Amcorp Mall today, so i decided to test out this idea by taking the LRT there. it was fun and all, but so impractical. yalar yalar so i saved like over RM30 cos i took the train instead of cabbing it back and forth, but think about it - it’s just so impossible to not take cabs! i mean it’s not like every single place i have to go to for the next month will be right next to a train station like Amcorp is! anyway blablabla to get to the point, if i give up cabs i am handicapped, end of story.
so, what else do i really love and need, that i can actually give up without totally killing myself yet will exert just the right amount of torture on me?
*lightbulb!*
… DESSERT.
and that is how i came to start Project Puasa 2006. i’m going to give up dessert (for clarity’s sake - cake, chocolate, brownies, milkshakes, biscuits, ice cream, pudding, sweets, tarts .. argh just about anything sweet) for a whole month. purpose : to instill charity and empathy in myself towards poor and destitute souls who dont/cant eat dessert. eg- diabetic patients, anorexic models, cranky old women with no sweet tooth, Martian.
sigh! it’s going to be a long, sad month. to hold me up for the next 30 days, i went to Baskin Robbins today and ate cookies&creme ice cream until i almost puked. my stupid friends think that i’m not going to be able to do this (except ivan, who believes in me. thank you ivan i love you!) and will cave after two days. HUH! i shall show you the extent of my willpowahhh!
*shifty eyes*
die lah there’s like all this chocolate on my desk and all these cookies on the dining table.
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wei encourage me lah! i really wanna do this. if any of y’all meet up with me over lunch or dinner in the next month, you MUST make sure i dont touch dessert, okay? okay?????
eh seriously. you all think i can do it anot?
edit : i went to the ramadhan bazaar today and managed to ignore all the cute little green gula melaka kuihs! and all the cendol! and all the tepung pelita! and then when my neighbour gave me a kitkat i totally refused it! muahaha i rock. day 1 of Project Puasa - successful! :D
September 24th, 2006
