So Much That I Want
September 4th, 2006
i had my period twice this month in two consecutive weeks. so my body is one hell of a hormonal tsunami right now. it’s crazy. i’m having all these cravings and all these moodswings and, er, all these longings of having babies, hahaha. it’s like these days i ovulate on the spot everytime i see cute little kids.
right now, i just want to marry the most perfect guy on earth and have lots of beautiful kids with him.
i want to read bedtime stories to my kids. i want to listen to them breathe when they sleep, and i want to brush their hair out of their eyes. i want to trace my finger down their cheeks, i want to slip out of their bedroom and i want to go over to my husband and tell him how much i love him for being part of the birth of my children.
i want to wake up to my kids crawling into bed with us cos they had nightmares. i want to hold them to sleep. i want to turn on the lights for them as they go to the bathroom in the middle of the night. i want to press my face into their neck and smell their sweet child scent. i want to fight with my husband over whose features our kids got.
i want to make peanut butter sandwiches for my kids. i want to lay out their clothes for them. i want to have breakfast with them before they leave for school. i want to drive them to school. i want to listen to them argue with each other every morning. i want to watch them disappear into the school. i want to read their report cards and every comment that their teachers have to say about them. i want to pore over photos of them with my husband. i want to put up their crayon drawings on the refridgerator. i want to bake them cupcakes. i want to eat cupcakes that they made. i want to give them little nicknames.
i want to watch movies with them sitting in between my legs. i want to paint their toenails. i want to teach them the alphabet. i want to listen to them laugh, i want to kiss them. i want to smile at strangers who wave at my kids and give them the thumbs-up. i want to rush after them as they run down escalators. i want to bring them to the park in the evenings and sit on the swings with them. i want to put on shoes for them. i want to tickle them.
i want to just hold them and i want to love them. and kiss them.
omg. hormones hormones hormones. need to remind myself that i am only 17 and that kids are very, VERY far away…
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1. Kevin Chan | September 4th, 2006 at 2:35 am
Haha…. Someone is in a wierdly sentimental mood today eh?
2. tze | September 4th, 2006 at 5:17 am
yeah but then you also have to like sacrifice a huge load of your shopping budget.
i’m just being realistic! for me its bags and shoes and clothes but for the rest its your watches, electronic whatzits and swank apartments overlooking whatever because your kids need a lawn to ride their bikes in.
so its hello kids bye prada straw + leather bag (did you see it i swear its orgasmic).
HUGE reason why i’m telling eugin i am NOT having kids.
3. prawn | September 4th, 2006 at 6:17 am
Whoh… u really do have that motherly touch =)
4. MichelleSY | September 4th, 2006 at 8:06 am
Oh sweetie, that’s ok. Kids might be far away, but at least you know you’ll be ready when you finally have them.
And may I just say, I think Pinkpau’s going to make a great mom! :)
ps: I’ve been through it all, and 8 years on from 17, I still think kids are very very far away. Sigh. Would that they were nearer in my future.
5. obg | September 4th, 2006 at 8:52 am
is it normal to have period for 2 weeks? will it be classified as menorrhagia. u’d better check it out, my dear
6. reallybites | September 4th, 2006 at 10:27 am
omg hahaha :P
ok go make babies now and then 9 mths later,u’ll be a mum di hahaha
7. lishun | September 4th, 2006 at 11:21 am
eek. kids! gah! *runs away*
come let me take your medical history…have you been sleeping well? eating well? do you drink enough water every day? have you been taking any medication? erm. err.
8. pinkpau | September 4th, 2006 at 12:49 pm
kevin chan : yea .. haha tis partially your fault for getting me started on sentimental gifts for your gf :P
tze : hehe and does eugin want kids?!
prawn : do you really mean that?! :D
michellesy : 8 yrs away from now seems very far away too =( even at 25 i have to wait some more?!
obg : nooo i didnt think it was normal either! i thought it was so weird. went to see a doc about some viral infection i didnt know i had, and i mentioned getting my period twice in two consecutive weeks, but he didnt seem very worried … so i guess i’m ok :P
reallybites : hehe omg dont put ideas in my head
lishun : you know you lurveee kids, hehehe! yea sleeping well, yea definitely eating well hahaha, yea drinking lotsa water, no not taking medication! =( see i’m totally normal. why do i have my period twice in two weeks?!
9. reallybites | September 4th, 2006 at 1:35 pm
imagine being a mum at 18…u will be 38 when ur kid is 20…ppl might even mistaken u for his gf then! ur gonna be one hot mama!
kekeke
10. splashmilk | September 4th, 2006 at 1:55 pm
Speaking of which … having a baby at 17, is not a bad idea … Like Gilmore Girls, maybe u should give it a try. OMG … What am i doing!
11. steph | September 4th, 2006 at 2:21 pm
lol. omg. yes. i feel the same way. ovulating is just annoying sometimes. if only men ovulated too, they’d understand that midnight craving for crackers and salmon spread or all 6 bars of Heaven chocolate you insist on hvng.. did you know they now have cookie dough flavoured KitKat over here and that Steve Irwin (crocodile hunter) died today?
i cant imagine what i’ll be like when i actualy fall preggers.
have a good one otherwise. =D
12. rt | September 4th, 2006 at 2:25 pm
oi…you’re making me miss my niece back at home…
13. Johann | September 4th, 2006 at 2:32 pm
So when are you coming to Melb again? ;) As long as you don’t try to be a catcher in the rye and save them from growing up :P
14. TheRealAnonymous | September 4th, 2006 at 5:38 pm
Oh well… as I always remind my friends… “it all begins with a dream”.
Dun forget the part where u pray every night for your child’s well being. =)
15. Cheryl | September 4th, 2006 at 6:08 pm
Your complain of menorrhagia will only be taken seriously if it’s affecting you seriously such as, you are feeling lethargic because of anemia and etc. However, if it’s asymptomatic, it’s ok. It can certainly be treated if you wish to regulate your menstrual cycle.
16. Kyels | September 4th, 2006 at 6:20 pm
You’ll definitely be a good mom one day!
(:
17. DLT2 | September 4th, 2006 at 6:22 pm
Kids kids kids. You just made them sound like they come in cerial boxes labelled “caution, bundle of joy. Handle with love and care”. Ooh la la xD
18. Waifon | September 4th, 2006 at 7:26 pm
OMG… I thought I was the only person who cant wait to make sweet love and give birth to a bundle of babies! I’m also having my period now… for more than a week already and it has never been this regular. I missed it for 9- 10 months before :( anyway, you still haven’t tell me why are you traumatised? Hope your ovaries and fallopian tubes have a great time surfing on your hormonal tsunami:D
19. Jinz | September 4th, 2006 at 8:05 pm
hmmm hope you find the perfect guy asap then…lol….weird motherly touch mood swing…
20. Sv | September 4th, 2006 at 9:19 pm
hahaha.. ur turn to have kids will come.. slow down kekekeXD
21. MichelleSY | September 4th, 2006 at 9:29 pm
Sigh.
I know.
8 years seems infinitely distant when you’re 17. But I woke up one morning and I was 25, thousands of miles from home, with an excruciating torturous post-grad degree underway and a wrinkle under my left eye.
And maybe, just maybe, a hankering for kids =)
But hey, you could be lucky, you could meet The One tomorrow. So don’t let a grumpy ole pessimist like me dissuade you =)
Cheers,
MichelleSY
22. voonkiat | September 4th, 2006 at 10:31 pm
awwww.. so sweet ;p
23. Ginny | September 5th, 2006 at 12:02 am
im in such a mood atm too.. OMG..IS THAT WHY IM IN EMO PHASE @_@
24. pinkpau | September 5th, 2006 at 12:50 am
reallybites : haha okok sounds like a good idea .. i can have fun bluffing ppl with my son :P time to start preserving my youth!
splashmilk : the chick in gilmore girls had a baby at 17??? really?! and i thought one tree hill’s haley was cool enough for getting married at 16..!
steph : COOKIE DOUGH FLAVOURED KIT KAT??????? no. way. on. earth!!!
rt : hehe malaysia boleh!
johann : johanny!!!!! whats this cookie dough flavoured kit kat that i hear you guys have!!! first pb kitkats and now cookie dough?? why is melbourne so COOL?!
therealanonymous : hehe i think i’ll be too busy looking at them sleep to do that..
cheryl : no serious effects besides this crazy urge to have kids, so i guess i’m fine :)
kyels : i REALLY hope so!
DLT2 : omg kids in cereal boxes @_@
waifon : missed it for 10 months?! haha damn nice ok. u know how much money u can save on sanitary pads?! and u dont have to stop eating ice cream and other cold stuff!
jinz : yea i cant wait to meet the future husband … hehe
sv : cant!! very excited!!
michellesy : hehe you should get married!!
voonkiat : muahaha
ginny : we both are :P
25. Bernard | September 5th, 2006 at 5:41 am
gugu… mummy pau pau
26. prawn | September 5th, 2006 at 6:12 am
Hehe, unless ur motherly touch comes only when ur having periods =D
But yeah, agree with the rest, you make one very ‘the hot’ mama =P
27. rt | September 5th, 2006 at 2:00 pm
what does missing my niece and msia boleh has anything to do with each other?
28. Anon | September 5th, 2006 at 5:53 pm
And then they grow up to be beautiful young adults . . . then the world changes . . . greasy teenagers and twisted old men wave at your daughter and you’re not smiling at them anymore, and your son consistently openly challenges you. After a short while you’re left with an empty nest and then you realise you’re a relic . . .
29. Johann | September 6th, 2006 at 2:40 pm
because Melbourne is your destiny? :D
30. steph | September 6th, 2006 at 7:58 pm
lol. like wot johann said. turns out you have a number of international readers eh? you should come down under sometime and we’ll take you out. =P
31. pinkpau | September 6th, 2006 at 8:18 pm
bernard : haha gross!!!
prawn : ahaha wow can i frame up your comment??
rt : oops is your niece not in msia?
anon : very true :( very sad too.
johann : hehe anywhere that has cookies&creme kitkats and johanny is my destiny indeed..
steph : DONE DEAL :D
32. natech | September 6th, 2006 at 11:28 pm
Wow, nice post. Really enjoyed reading it. Was gonna comment to ask how old you are but of course, you mentioned it at the end. :-)
Looks like you probably would have to marry a guy with a wealthy nest so you could be a housewife and devote your life to take care of kids and never miss a single moment as they grow up.
33. prawn | September 7th, 2006 at 6:39 am
Kekeke, ‘frame’ up my comment? Watever makes u happy =)
And on another note, congrats on being one of the final nominees for best Malaysian Blog 06/07 =)
34. jirwan | September 7th, 2006 at 6:34 pm
you seem like u wanna do somethings that parents hate the most and it seems like u wanna do it so willingly hahahah
35. pinkpau | September 10th, 2006 at 3:31 pm
natech : haha nooo i want to work too! i’d be so fidgety if i didnt!
prawn : hehe thank you. i dont really deserve i tho.
jirwan : hehehehe .. would u like to volunteer yourself!
36. pickles | December 15th, 2006 at 8:43 am
Mmm… Good post :) Will watch your blog
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