Conversations With Photographers
January 4th, 2007
‘i just want things to be special.’
‘that’s very idealistic.’
‘for the longest time i thought it was so cute that we called each other baby and like, nothing else. he apparently never used that nickname on anyone. and you know, neither have i.’
’so it was like your ‘thing’ huh?’
‘yeah it was.. but now.. aiyo donno lah. the last few times he called me that, i wanted to just turn around and slap him.’
‘how are you feeling now?’
’sick. disgusted. a little bit angry.’
‘i dont blame you.’
‘and i think about all the times i joked about me being 18. i always thought that was such a safe thing to kid around about. you know, just something that’s between the both of us. but now it’s something that’s shared. spoiled. not special. it just dilutes everything. the magic of it.’
‘i still cant get over how small the world is.’
‘i know.. it’s really weird. damn weird actually.’
‘but nothing beats the (Neve) thing.’
‘hah. after that happened, i couldnt bear to hear my name coming from his mouth. everytime he said my name i just cringed inside. even up till now.’
’sorry.’
‘it’s okay. i’m over that. hey. did you know that he taught her economics? like over msn.’
‘really?’
‘yeah… and the thing is, i loved him most when he was teaching me economics. he was always so cute doing it, and i looked forward so much to saying, ‘baby i’ve got an exam tomorrow, teach me!!’.. but now i just want to go back in time and erase all the times he ever fucking taught me econs. arhghghghgh.’
‘dont be like that lah. memories, good or bad, are here to stay. dont write off everything that ever happened just because it wasnt special, as you put it. hey you know what i think.. i think you need some love. let me love you.’
‘it’s almost embarassing. you think you’re so close to a person, and you think everything is so comfortable. but really, the whole world is seeing what i didnt. and they’re all just laughing at me. i feel like crying. i think about what (Friend) said and i want to fucking cry my eyes out for not listening to him sooner.’
‘let me love you.’
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20 Comments Add your own
1. Sandra | January 4th, 2007 at 5:29 pm
What happen with the Photographers? hahahahah! im sensitive when you say PHOTOGraphers! dun forget im one of them too..hahahah. Kidding! curious to know!
2. sieutheng | January 4th, 2007 at 5:53 pm
i feel you
3. tze | January 4th, 2007 at 6:25 pm
eh i dont really understand! am i stupid! =((((
4. f | January 4th, 2007 at 7:55 pm
nice.
5. Ginny | January 4th, 2007 at 8:20 pm
am i stupid too @_@?? i get it.. but i dont get who’s who in the convo @_@
6. pinkpau | January 5th, 2007 at 4:51 am
sandra : the photographer is ok :) nothing bad happened.
sieutheng : sigh :(
tze : of course not babe
f : haha you sadist
ginny : one’s me. one’s someone else.
7. Julian Cheong | January 5th, 2007 at 3:27 pm
Interesting !!!!!! Sounds so curang-y.
8. bodicea | January 5th, 2007 at 8:59 pm
the excerpt IS nice wert
9. MichelleSY | January 5th, 2007 at 11:43 pm
Oh god.
I really hope that it isn’t what I think it is. And that the person who’s conversing in red isn’t you.
Any chance that I might be wrong?
10. pinkpau | January 5th, 2007 at 11:49 pm
julian cheong : u just want to see me sad :(
bodicea : what excerpt?
michellesy : haha im not sure i know what it is either. but i dont care anymore.
11. Ginny | January 6th, 2007 at 12:04 am
i knowwww! >.
12. azlan | January 6th, 2007 at 12:30 am
take care pinkpau =>
13. Michael Sin | January 6th, 2007 at 2:22 am
Oooo…long time no drop by at your blog and when I do…its about some photographer! Erm…am I stupid too…cause I oso dun understand wor!
That photog fella wouldn’t be dear ole Michael, would it? Cause this is how Michael would phrase his last sentence…”Let GOD love you”.
Haha…cheers dude. Good to know u r still around and lately…very much into romance, intimacy and exoticsm. Uuuu…I can just feel the juice running all over.
Remember, I am still just a phone call away. Take care and God bless.
14. pinkpau | January 6th, 2007 at 5:06 am
ginny : did ur comment get cut off?
azlan : u come bak take care of me!
michael sin : good to see u, mike :) we should catch up sometime!
15. bodicea | January 6th, 2007 at 4:53 pm
heh. i take this as an excerpt. ^^
eh, are you still on MSN? i could use a good talk
16. Vicnan | January 6th, 2007 at 10:42 pm
*holds*
17. pinkpau | January 7th, 2007 at 3:59 am
bodicea : no babe, i havent actually been able to get into msn for the past few days
vicnan : sigh! :(
18. Ginny | January 7th, 2007 at 11:39 am
yea @_@…
i was saying i know its between the both of u but i cant grasp its meaning..well i sort of can but yet wad i think couldnt possibly be what it is right @_@?? RIGHT?@@
19. alea | January 9th, 2007 at 4:24 am
it’s like im reading a dialog from a novel. =’)
20. Asyraf Lee | January 9th, 2007 at 7:15 am
*garu kepala*
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