Not Everything Has To Have A Title

i know a lot of things. but this is not one of them. why am i doing this? i dont know that either…

i had something i wanted to say but i forgot. at first i wrote a few lines about it on my wordpress but then i thought aiyah better dont blog about these kinda things. and now i dont even remember it.

a long time ago, during an argument someone said to me, ‘do you have a personality disorder or something?’. the truth is i’ve always felt that i do. i’m scared that i do. i’m scared about a lot of things, and a lot of the time i just need some understanding and some comfort. and support.. definitely support. it’s hard to feel loved when you feel attacked first and foremost.

i am a represser. when bad things happen, i try to forget them. i just push them away. i’m one of those people who would say, ‘please dont bring it up’, or tune out of a conversation when said bad thing is being discussed. i guess that makes me an avoider, too. but like i said before, i’m just scared. i’m just a scared person with a personality disorder.

by the way, i remembered what i wanted to say. i wanted to say that there are very few things in life that you immediately know are right for you. very, very few.

24 comments March 28th, 2007