Eh I Tell You Something Lah But You Dont Tell Anybody

it’s really so very hard these days to find a good listener.

you know how it is - there’s the type who zones out whenever you’re talking and goes ‘huh what sorry?’ when you ask if they’re listening, then there’s the type who always turns your story around to be a story about themselves (’oh that reminds me of something that happened to ME last week.. blablablabla’), not to mention those who belittle your problems, or those who scold you about making mistakes when all you really want is just someone to listen to you rant.

i usually know when people are not interested in listening to my problems, so i dont tell them. and i also know not to talk to people who tend to get really aggressive or all i-told-you-so. simply put, i know when not to talk to bad listeners. but you know what’s the most deceiving of all - it’s the people who are really interested in what you have to say, give you good feedback, are sympathetic, and then fucking tell the entire world about it.

i hate it when i tell someone something in confidence, and then find out over the next week or so that the whole world has already heard about it. especially when these issues are delicate or really personal. i mean, do people have no respect for trust these days. when someone trusts you enough to disclose little secrets or big problems, you should know that these things are weighty and to keep it to yourself, right? but no, these juicy things spread like wildfire simply because there exists people who love to be the go-to for the latest gossip and information. they love it when they’re in this elevated position - oh you know, i’m closer to her than you are and that’s why i already know this and you dont! - and they fucking thrive on it for their selfish little purposes of feeling important and well-connected.

yknow if you actually care about this person you’re talking about, then okay yeah discuss the issue and come up with ways to help the person or whatever. but dont freely divulge these things to nosy and irrelevant people over your salad bowl during your bloody lunch hour, just so you can have something to talk about, or because you relish the feeling of dropping bombs and being able to elicit wide-eyed disbelieving looks from all around the room.

ESPECIALLY WHEN THE PERSON CONCERNED SAID, ‘DONT TELL ANYONE THIS’.

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and you know what’s worse, it’s when bloggers are involved. oh my GOD when bloggers are involved -____- seriously, it is taking this whole ‘blogosphere’ shit way too far when you start seeing it fit to tell other people things that you are not supposed to, simply because ‘we’re all bloggers wat’. yeah yeah community spirit and all, but subscribing to that does not mean you feel comfortable with every single person in that community, much less them knowing intimate details of issues that you’d rather only a select few knew about.

i’m just very pissed off at myself because i always make this mistake of being too open about my personal life, even to people i dont know that well. and even to friends whom i’ve known forever and are really close to but have a reputation of being the biggest gossipmongers ever, i tell them things anyway. and then i get pissed off when the stories get out. it’s like i never learn. i never never learn.

oh ya i wanted to say something earlier but i forgot. i think there is a loophole in the creation of universe - how can it be possible and allowable for people to put words into other people’s mouths, and then get away with it?? someone came up to me the other day and asked, eh i heard you dont like this guy A. and i was like WHAT? i’ve never even harboured a single mean thought about A! and she goes, ‘oh this girl B told me’. and i know for a fact that B herself doesnt like A. so you see what’s the case here - some bloody bimbo who wants to bitch about a person she doesnt like, but doesnt have the guts to say so and instead uses someone else as a channel to make her statements. stupid wan lah i dont understand why people like them are allowed to exist.

*fumes*

37 comments August 16th, 2007