Who’s Lexie?

September 30th, 2007

i sat next to the one man who understood my moods best, my dad, and he had to all but open his mouth for 2 seconds and i was out the door in a flurry of blinked back tears and hurriedly grabbed things. i dont know what is it with me lately - it’s like every little thing upsets me. i broke a glass and started crying. i accidentally got UHU glue on my fingers and felt this burning fury, like i wanted to smear the glue all across the world. i looked at the toilet and thought, what a sad sad thing it must be to be a toilet. ass kisser. shit eater. puke canvas. jamban.

went to dinner alone and the expanse of the menu freaked me out. so many things. is it possible to have this many different pizza toppings? it was like a reverse claustrophobia, at the epicenter of which was me, and i could only see this ocean of happy yellow menu in all directions. i was treading panic and swallowing hopelessness. i ended up ordering 3 different pizzas and touching none; brought them back for my brothers who were lunchless this afternoon but now they are nowhere to be seen. clever boys. the house sucks. i would leave too if i were them.

met someone the other day. whether her speech was directed at me or not, the former of which was rarer, all the things she said angered me. it was total deja vu; i know the type - Machiavelli with doe eyes - and i cant stand it. i tried to like her, i really did, but why did she have to say things like that? red-under-green kind of things. it made me angry to have to sit there and listen to such armed talk, to have to be socially correct, to maintain poise, to be equally, if not more, red-under-green in return. to smile and to keep giving birth to conversation attempts, when i would have given anything to openly express my distaste for her and her breezy, conniving remarks, maybe even strangle her, without feeling bad or regretting it.

in the cab on the way home, i dug around my wallet for change. all i kept getting were singaporean coins. singaporean 20 cents, singaporean 50 cents, singaporean dollars. the worst and most exasperating of the lot were the singaporean 10 cents. where are all my malaysian coins? do i even have any? i should get some. and if so, today is the day i should do it. or so i keep saying. and saying. and saying, but never doing. or at least, doing it the right way, in the stuffing handfuls of lima puluh sen in my wallet kinda way.

right now, my hair smells like pepperoni. or milk. and like life, it is making me queasy. but unlike life, this queasiness can be washed away with a good bottle of Redken Smooth Down shampoo.

Entry Filed under: Musings, Rants

60 Comments Add your own

  • 1. Gin  |  September 30th, 2007 at 10:32 pm

    awww.. facebook ;p hehee..

  • 2. wklee  |  September 30th, 2007 at 10:47 pm

    hey pinkpau =) saw ya at KLCC earlier today looking at SAT books. first time seeing you since i started reading your blog, and you looked really sad. cheer up ok? hope you feel better and all the best for your exams

  • 3. Jun  |  September 30th, 2007 at 11:21 pm

    aww… we all have days like that *hugs* but hey, look on the bright side, not all of us can afford Redken shampoo– even if it’s only able to wash off the stickiness in ur hair and not in ur life ;) all the best in ur SATs! (when r u sitting for them btw?)

  • 4. Michael  |  October 1st, 2007 at 12:01 am

    got so emo ma…gd luck in ur exams!!

  • 5. smartypants  |  October 1st, 2007 at 1:20 am

    dont be so hard on yourself. things do get better, just hang in there. tight hugs for you. at times i feel that a home is like a bird nest, even the best one will be empty eventually. children from ‘fine’ and not so ‘fine’ homes have equal urge to leave home. no? well, many proud parents of fine homes suffer from empty nest syndrome.

  • 6. WP  |  October 1st, 2007 at 1:34 am

    yeah, that happens…sometimes you just feel like nothing’s going the way you want it…hope you feel better now…or else, soon!

  • 7. DolphyN  |  October 1st, 2007 at 6:07 am

    hey hang in there girl….things get better….we r all girls, we know…hehe….*lotsa hugz* u’ll do superly well for ur SATS!

  • 8. Michelle  |  October 1st, 2007 at 6:53 am

    Awwwwwwwwwwwwww………….. don’t be sad. I’ll send you e-Rocky Road.

    =D

  • 9. TheRealAnonymous  |  October 1st, 2007 at 12:44 pm

    HOLY CRAP! I just noticed today is the 1st of October… =( I don’t think so I’ll be home for your birthday… I’m so sorry. I’ll have a belated celebration with you when I get back alrite?? =p

  • 10. Jeff from LA  |  October 1st, 2007 at 12:54 pm

    I’m sorry that life is treating you so poorly Pinkpau. Don’t worry though, the good days are not that far away.

  • 11. Anonymous  |  October 1st, 2007 at 1:41 pm

    is lexie the half-sister of meredith grey?

  • 12. N  |  October 1st, 2007 at 2:30 pm

    what a sad, sad existence.

    am sure everyone here is terribly emphatic with the rich old boyfriend, social butterfly, expensive restaurant jet-setting-oh-woe-is-me, designer shoe fetish, cupcake-eating SAT student life you’re leading.

    i am, too, quite sorry that life is treating you sooooo poorly Pinkpau.

    things will get better eh.

  • 13. Porcupine  |  October 1st, 2007 at 2:44 pm

    Well…
    IIt’s kinda hard to disagree with what N said…
    You ARE socially and financially better than at least 90% of the people in the world…
    On the outside that is…
    Everyone goes through emotional ups and downs…
    And when it so happens that you’re caught in the “down” part, here’s what to do…

    1. Go to liquor cabinet
    2. Make nice cocktail (Personal favourite, Sprite + Absolut Vanilla)
    3. Switch on nice music
    4. Scream along with music
    5. Play air guitar
    6. Tidy up broken pieces of furniture… (O.o)

  • 14. pinkpau  |  October 1st, 2007 at 2:54 pm

    gin : facebook what!

    wklee : hahaha yes i was staring at the shelf trying to decide between physics or math. tis a scary decision :P thank u for ur well wishes!

    jun : thank u :) *hugs bak* taking 2 sat subject tests this saturday

    michael : thanks!

    smartypants : that’s true lah. but what happens in the meantime when the hatchlings have to be home? eh we need to talk :P i heard you’re the one flying the nest now!!

    wp : thank u! i hope so too

    dolphyn : im actually REALLY nervous about the SAT subject tests. not enough studying yet. argh!

    michelle : what is e-rocky road !! hahaha cannot eat oso

    jeff : i anxiously await those days :D

    anon : yes :)

    n : i dont understand how people like you can read a person’s blog for like a day or two and make so many judgments on the blogger. do you know what i am going through? what window into my life do you have besides my blog, that gives you the right to justify your comments? just because all you read about are cupcakes and SAT student life, it doesnt mean there’s nothing else. find it in yourself to realize that a blog is but one dimension of a person. you dont even know me.

    porcupine : so does that give you a right to tell me what i can and cannot feel? people go through downtimes. and if they cant express it on their own blog, then what? i have never once said that my life sucks compared to everyone else out there. this whole post was one big metaphor - too bad people choose to jump to conclusions all the damn time.

  • 15. Gin  |  October 1st, 2007 at 2:56 pm

    hehehe. u said facebook rawks ma. so it might cheer u up =D

  • 16. michellesy  |  October 1st, 2007 at 4:20 pm

    Babe. I’ve been MIA online for awhile - damn uni.
    Are you OK? I’m hoping it’s just the stress of the SATs and nothing else that’s making you so sad?
    *Hugs hugs hugs hugs*

  • 17. Charlie  |  October 1st, 2007 at 5:11 pm

    The next time Ms. Jellyfish gets you stuck in such a spot right…

    I know a website that can suggest a few good wrestling moves.

  • 18. geral  |  October 1st, 2007 at 6:24 pm

    hey! i realised who julian ng is!! he used to be in sales at CIMB in hk!!! omg small world HI JULIAN

  • 19. smartypants  |  October 1st, 2007 at 7:15 pm

    “eh we need to talk :P” ..wow!… aye! aye! ma’am, you are welcome…one fine day..

  • 20. smartypants  |  October 1st, 2007 at 7:25 pm

    ya, just one more thing. put an end to species like n. i dont mean violently..maybe ala gandhism.. :)

  • 21. N  |  October 1st, 2007 at 8:26 pm

    hey your opinions are valid, so are mine: they’re mine. and u choose to let us share ours with you. so don’t be biased just because i’m not sitting on your side of the fence, or telling you things you want to hear, after all blogs are free speech and you get the same freedom to say the things we would in comments.

    i’ve been reading your blog for ages, perhaps from what you portray or choose to share these are the opinions people make about you. we can’t see past the surface that is this firefox browser because we don’t personally know you. so if you are going to be touchy feely about opinions people have about the public Pinkpau perhaps you should rethink the image you’re giving us.

    and hey, species like “N” will always exist.

  • 22. foreverjas  |  October 1st, 2007 at 10:54 pm

    sad too. >,

  • 23. Philip Pang  |  October 1st, 2007 at 11:29 pm

    Hmmm, I do enjoy reading your entries but first time commenting. Very true blogger indeed.

    Cheers!

  • 24. linsey  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 12:35 am

    good luck for SATs all the way from penanggg woots =)

  • 25. Charlie  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 12:40 am

    “perhaps you should rethink the image you’re giving us.”

    Why should she have to adulterate her style of self-expression to suit the desires of someone who doesn’t matter to her? Please don’t flatter yourself into thinking that what you think of her actually matters all that much.

    You already openly admitted that you don’t personally know her. Yet you talked at length about her situation as if you do. So? Who is the one that has to do the rethinking here? Free speech is all very well and fine, but there is a universal consensus that states that people who don’t know what they’re talking about should just keep quiet.

    There is also an unwritten rule stating that if you have something to say, you can say it nicely. The way you stated your opinion was rude and condescending. Those two characteristics, coupled with your ignorance, make for this: an opinion that doesn’t deserve to be taken seriously. If you want a kinder reaction from the recipient of your comment, perhaps a little more respect is in order…?

  • 26. Porcupine  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 1:10 am

    whoa whoa whoa…
    it’s getting way out of hand here…

    Pinkpau?
    I’m sorry if I had hurt your feelings. It has occured to me that it’s all about the right of expressionism.
    Personally, I feel this only adds more to the flavour of your blog. I mean, you’re one of those rare bloggers who actually writes down their feelings and rantings according to the way that they want it to be.
    You’re not bounded by the thought of “I should blog about stuffs that people want to read about”.
    And I wouldn’t have it any other way as this is what that makes your blog so special.

    As such, I’m sorry if my words were too crude…
    Please forgive me.. (T_T)…

  • 27. penjagagol  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 4:47 am

    SAT subject tests? I wouldn’t worry too much ’bout them. If even I could get perfect scores, I’m sure you can too. =)

    Cheers, and good luck.

  • 28. Michael  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 4:52 am

    a nice metaphor it is.
    dunno why i sudd realises that the rich and resourceful maintain a blog well..almost?
    maybe they can dine in fine dining restaurants, attend glamorous parties, blog bout nice bags, travelling all over the world etc etc. while poor ppl dun have much to talk really. who would wan to hear some ppl ranting bout his/her miserable life…

    ok, not like N or some other else that says u cant have down times etc…i mean all ppl does…and they are free to express any damn thing they want in their blog…

    I mean a miserable guy…give him a name, like M
    when he looks all the damn nice thing in ur life, while he have to suffer all the fxcking life he is on every day…
    and when he sees u ranting bout some really tiny meeny thing that supposed(yeah…supposed -,-) to be nth compared to the shit he gone through every day…i’m sure M and N or i dunno who will get kinda piss off and try to tell u that ur not that miserable.

    i understand wat this entry is talking about….
    as my gf is also kinda ranting bout something anytime, anywhere(which is very very annoying…trust me, and she doesnt metaphors) even though she leads a “supposedly” much more better life than M or some other ppl out there.

    no offense pls. pls dun hurt me with ur comments. i’m real fragile. quote: “with increased blog popularity, there comes more haters” I LOVE UR BLOG!!!! (ok, i’m a fanboy)

  • 29. M  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 5:05 am

    Charlie: N does have valid comments. He/she has a right to express his/her opinions. True, they may not matter much, but they’re valid all the same. Criticism is as important, or maybe even more important, than “hearing what you want to hear”. Unless you’re the Malaysian government, of course.

  • 30. Michael  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 5:51 am

    y a M suddenly pops out =.= (maybe it is the shadow of N…scaryyy) y would someone criticise another person for feeling bad and writing it on her’s own blog. criticism is important..but here?

  • 31. Michelle  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 6:18 am

    Well, since you can’t eat that one, what about I get you a real one?

    I’ll find a way to meet you after SPM. If that is possible. =)

    I’m sure it is.

  • 32. N  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 8:36 am

    sweet. princess Pinkpau moderates comments. can’t you take a little honest opinion from a stranger?

  • 33. N  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 8:37 am

    dear charlie

    and i said, quote: so if you are going to be touchy feely about opinions people have about the public Pinkpau perhaps you should rethink the image you’re giving us.

    truncating half the sentence does change its meaning, and mine, so please don’t do that and go off on a tangent. at least show me you understood what i was trying to say. properly.

  • 34. N  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 8:38 am

    i do have valid points. Pinkpau can blog about whatever she wants. at the same time commenters can say whatever they want too. all i am trying to say is, that was how i saw it. in a way it was criticism but it wasn’t sugarcoated. should it be?

    look at porcupine. one negative response from miss Pinkpau and he/she is all apologetic. have some spine man. she’s not made out of glass right?

    often, blog commenters care too much about what the blogger thinks about them.

    why can’t commenters be as honest as bloggers often are?

  • 35. Charlie  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 11:47 am

    I highly doubt I went off on a ‘tangent’, seeing as how the purpose of my response was to tell you that you could have done a better job with expressing your opinion. Everything I stated in my comment has served that objective perfectly well. I think it is you that has misunderstood.

    I managed to understand the points you were trying to put across. However, I think that you failed to do the same for mine. Notice how I never stated that I am against criticism in totality; I just can’t stand people making conclusions on something they’re not familiar with at all.

    There is a universe of difference between sugar-coating a dissenting opinion and being an obnoxious, presumptuous turd. Your unnecessarily caustic sarcasm has placed you firmly in the latter category. I get what you mean by being entitled to the right to say what you want however you want to. But if you don’t want your target to react antagonistically, simple logic states that you shouldn’t give her reason to. This is something people on the higher rungs of the evolution ladder like to call “civility”.

    Also, I find it funny that you’re whining so much about freedom of verbal expression, and yet YOU are the one telling Pinkpau how to react to comments. You are entitled to an opinion on Pinkpau’s blog post, but she is also entitled to an opinion on your opinion. The ‘I get to say whatever I want however I want’ door swings both ways.

    Also, the fact that she is trying to defend herself doesn’t mean she is getting all ‘touchy feely’ (How eloquently put! Send for the Pulitzer!). She has a right to vindicate herself in the event that someone jumps to inaccurate conclusions on her personal life. If wanting to clarify things from her perspective makes her ‘biased’, then aren’t we all a little ‘biased’ in that respect?

    I get tired of having to repeat myself, so before you write your reply, please remember that I am not against blog criticism in general. I am just against yours because, well, you didn’t know what the screaming, yippadeedoodah-ing fuck you were talking about. You even admitted to that yourself.

    To Michael: Opinions only have validity when they are not aired by a self-proclaimed ignoramus. Criticism is only important when the critic is familiar with what he is talking about.

    If a man that does not know anything about the Chinese (other than what he has seen in Jackie Chan movies) says “all chineez r dawg-eatin basturds lawl’, is that still valid? Should it still be taken seriously? Obviously, the answer is no.

  • 36. pinkpau  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 12:30 pm

    gin : facebook gives me stress sometimes :P spend too much time on it, productivity is lowered! sigh!

    michellesy : yea i wish it was just the SATs .. :) i’ve missed you babe!!

    geral : haha he’s left cimb tho!

    smartypants : free urself this saturday nite then :P

    n : i’m glad you realize the firefox browser is all that you’re getting; the public pinkpau as opposed to the nonpublic pinkpau. this post that you’re commenting on addresses 4 different issues that i’m going through, via metaphors of pizza toppings, the toilet, coins and a girl i met; 4 issues that are big and right now are eating me inside out. it makes me angry that you have the nerve to come in here and tell me that i have no right to go through these problems and feel upset about them. you said it yourself, you are a reader who only sees the “public pinkpau”. so there may be a certain image that you get from me (which is funny because i never brag about having money; did you know that bloggers get to dine for free a lot? and my travel isnt expensive? when did you see me blog about designer shoes as you so put it?), but learn to distinguish between this public me and the real me. what you’re doing is taking your judgments of a public me and superimposing it all over the private me, the personal me who goes through ups and downs just like everyone does. very unfair.

    foreverjas : whye?

    philip pang : thank u :)

    linsey : thank youuuuuu :D

    charlie : thanks babe :) you’re the bomb. said it more eloquently than i ever could have!

    porcupine : yes i wouldnt like to be a blogger who blogs only what his or her audience wants to read. the audience should come because they want to read what the blogger has to say

    penjaga gol / m : thank u re the sats. and no one is saying N doesnt have the right to express him/herself; we’re simply replying. hopefully not in a way that’s msian parliamentary :)

    michael : you got my metaphors? :) really? thats good. keep it to yourself. on another note, what do you mean that poor ppl have nothing to blog about? dont be ridiculous. the best blogs i’ve ever written or ever read about are the simplest things in life. not all my readers are as superficial as the handful of trolls who see “wahhh this girl goes overseas a lot” and immediately all they keep seeing is affluent elements of her blog. money isnt everything, u know. the best blogs arent about money.

    michelle : yea lets do that! all the best fo spm!!!! i remember it was hell.

    n : princess pinkpau doesnt know what the hell you’re talking about. i’ve only just come online and suddenly i’ve moderated comments? i dont do that. maybe my spam thingy thought you were a bot cos you’ve been posting too anonymously and too frequently. hey i can deal with criticism, but only if there is some truth in it. not only was yours a huge mis-assumption, but it also degenerated into an attack. saying i have a sad existence (when you dont even know what i’m talking about, or even know me for that matter) and accusing me of moderating comments doesnt sound very constructive to me.

  • 37. N  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 12:46 pm

    there’s a distinct difference between whining and simply stating a fact. so i’m not blessed with bucketloads of manners and tact and verbal eloquence as you seem to be born with. trust me im jealous already. but i think youve lost the whole point defending your lovely statements and Pinkpau in that 10/10 essay of yours….

    i’m just saying, you know, given all the luxuries of living a carefree life she sure has a lot of reason to be depressed about.

    should i elaborate? reality, for gods sake is more than the oh my god i’m blubbering because i don’t know why i’m feeling this way. poor me. reality is clairol on sale not fucking top shelf redken. reality is not enough money not where are my malaysian coins, fuck i dont need all these foreign change from all these trips ive been making. reality is what to eat for dinner on a budget not ordering three pizzas and oh ive lost my appetite.

    my opinions. bit late-coming but heck, feel free to disagree.

  • 38. pinkpau  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 1:00 pm

    n : aiyo like i said lah - they’re metaphors. and as for your version of reality, that is but one version of reality. just ONE. there is clairol, there is redken, there is joico, there is herbal essences. listen to what you’re saying; you’re saying that just because my reality is different from yours, i have no right to go through problems? and that i have no right to be sad? everyone has a different set of problems, and NOT EVERYTHING is about money or can be solved by it. why do you keep harping on that?

  • 39. N  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 1:02 pm

    because it was posted before your reply. life in a bubble is bliss.

    all the best miss Pinkpau.

  • 40. pinkpau  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 1:03 pm

    no but that was essentially your point in the first place, that because i supposedly ‘have money’, i have no right to feel sad or write sad things on my blog. was it not? life as perceived from outside the bubble is always distorted.

  • 41. N  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 1:25 pm

    money isn’t everything as you know. i said you had luxuries…not necessarily things money can buy although it sure helps :)

  • 42. B  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 1:46 pm

    Life is good. LG

  • 43. Porcupine  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 1:48 pm

    Dearest N,

    It is not that I am spineless. It is just a simple case of seeing the matter in a totally whole new way.
    For one, I’ve realised that I’m only a guest in someone else’s house.
    (IT’S A METAPHOR DUDE)
    And as what Charlie has said, there is this little value known as CIVILITY.
    So when you enter a friend’s house, by all means you’ll have to maintain a certain level of respect to the host right?
    You don’t go around saying stuffs like, “Dude, your house is like a total stinkhole” or somehting like that.

    Right of speech is all fine and dandy.
    The ART of speech is a whole different matter.

    And besides, lighten up on Pinkpau, she has more than enough matters to worry about.

  • 44. j0n  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 2:06 pm

    being honest is one thing…being rude is another…u don’t just fuckn tell someone you dont even know to have a spine… N, u should fckn ligthen up dude. ok maybe i should fckn lighten up…

    cheers!!

  • 45. Michael  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 2:16 pm

    my god, is a war going on?
    i dont mean readers only wanna read some rich ppl life…i mean, ppl like it when u have something good to share (like having a rich life), not saying beautiful little things in life is not worthy to write bout. N is just another hater on ur way to blogger-stardom lol. Dun get urself upset, lets do this exam!!!

    P.S: i shud get an alphabet as a name, seems cool.

  • 46. Waifon  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 2:49 pm

    hahaha i hv a lot of singaporean coins also in my wallet. in case i drop by Sg again then I don’t have to fret about change but i get very annoyed when i mistaken it as our 20 cents coins. i ran out of small change for a cab ride the other day and i gave him 5 SGD 1 coins and RM4 in coins and i said he can go change it to RM hahahah and he said nvm nvm. the cab ride was only 6 bucks but i felt bad for tht pak cik cos he dsnt have RM 50 change and i dnt hv enough RM 1 to spare. okay pauuuu faster blog something new already. this comment war damn lapuk jor pls. :D oh babe you’re the best la why are u so cool i always like chatting with u on msn cos ure so cool hahaha

  • 47. Charlie  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 3:41 pm

    Dearest N,

    Seeing as how you have NOT refuted my point that you already admitted that you don’t know what you’re talking about, meaning that you’re not entitled to any serious attention, I am going to take that as a surreptitious way of saying “Oh god she’s right!!! i’ll just ignore it and continue being an idiot and hope nobody notices”.

    Congratulations on proving to be a most fascinating combination of obtuseness, superciliousness and the inability to grasp the meaning of capitalisation.

    I have not lost ‘the whole point’. I have stated the purpose of my comment, and everything I have given you is completely relevant. The biggest problem, I think, is the fact that you don’t want to face up to your complete and utter idiocy.

    Please hang yourself. Save me the trouble.

  • 48. Charlie  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 3:45 pm

    And I find it very interesting that you actually have the gall to TELL Pinkpau what reality is, when you don’t have a single clue on any of her extremely serious problems. Since when has she ever put up a post saying anything close to “OMG CLINIQUE NO MORE PERFUME OREDI I GO JUMP CLIFF”? For all we know, what she is posting here is only the tip of the iceberg.

    This is the last time I’m going to tell you this: Stop fucking assuming that you’re actually in a position to tell someone what to do with regards to her personal life when you know nothing about her. Take that, put it in your pipe and smoke it till you fall off your pedestal.

  • 49. Gin  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 4:49 pm

    hahaha..ure funny.. oh well. PINK NIGHT IS ON THIS SAT =D bwhahahaha.. bunny ears? *grinz*

  • 50. Michael  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 5:53 pm

    woho =.= Charlie the charming prince vanquishing the evil N

  • 51. foreverjas  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 6:25 pm

    pink pau rocks forever!

  • 52. smartypants  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 6:38 pm

    it is good thus far. healthy discourse. maturity of thoughts. sheer mastery of language. (some only lerr..such as ch, su, jo, po, m ..) .. enjoy reading ya posts and comments.

  • 53. Jinneh  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 8:47 pm

    ice, people, ice =\ why everyone getting so worked up? It’s just a comment, and everyone has their own opinions, and then there will be opinions of those opinions… best way would be to just ignore them, i guess. [not saying i won't be mad if someone judges me for being depressed]

    pinkpau.. hmm, tried watching tv or playing games to keep your mind from overworking? i used to think a lot and get really down all the time, but somehow i stopped doing that already.

    I gotta say, it feels somewhat nice to not think so much.

    that said, it’s just an opinion.

    relax la =) i like your blog anyhow. a bit of heart and soul xD

  • 54. Michael  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 9:07 pm

    lets play some Wii~ wheee~

  • 55. pinkpau  |  October 2nd, 2007 at 11:07 pm

    n : money doesnt always help.

    b : hahahaha the LG people will be glad to know their marketing has been most effective :P

    j0n : jon dont get angry. come draw some graffiti :P the audrey hepburn u drew me has disappeared !

    waifon : thats why - our 20 cents and 10 cents and 50 cents both look the same!! very malu sometimes when you’re sifting through all those coins with ppl tapping their feet impatiently behind u :P hahaha cant believe u told the cabbie to go change the currency! yes yes must blog something new wtf i cant believe u used the word lapuk

    charlie : *dreamy eyes at jia li*

    gin : eh yes bunny ears :P shit lah where did mine go.

    foreverjas : hahahaha thank u thank u

    smartypants : what lah u!

    jinneh : because not everyone condones the tidak apa attitude. as for tv and games, hehe cant afford to do that now. exams.

    michael : wtf?

  • 56. Michael  |  October 3rd, 2007 at 12:56 am

    erm. ignore me. just have nth to do today. post exam syndrome.

  • 57. michellesy  |  October 3rd, 2007 at 8:31 am

    Awwwww babe. Missed you too and the blog. =)

    Best of luck for the SATs - you know you will be fine, you know it. So don’t stress out too much OK?

  • 58. nickie  |  October 4th, 2007 at 12:03 am

    N is a hater. and a very stubborn one at that.

    charlie, rock on!!

    pinkpau, best of luck in your SAT !!

  • 59. Albert Ng  |  October 5th, 2007 at 9:36 am

    There’ll always be the cynical, begrudging, victimized but educated middle-class who will be annoyed at whatever someone else ‘apparently’ gets without having to slog and sweat like they did. The most we can do is sympathise and let them rant. (And no I’m not talking about N.)

  • 60. PhooiSze  |  October 7th, 2007 at 8:52 pm

    the comments are scarier than the post *__*

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