Displacement
December 19th, 2007
these days i am like one of those trains in a math word problem - first i’m traveling 50 miles west and then i’m traveling 20 miles north and then 40 miles west and then 2 miles backwards and then 15 miles south and then how many miles is the displacement between me and the point of origin? all i know is that i am somewhere completely unintended and that there’s no proper plumbing here and it’s nightfall and there are bound to be werewolves lurking around.
i’ve been vacillating between periods of utter stress and some kind of quiet contentment. these days i’m just unbearable to be around because i’m so highly-strung and fidgety. but then i’m sent these things from heaven that remind me to calm down and that there is so much more to life than my narrow perception of what’s supposedly important. like today, i had to go to college to sort out some last-minute trauma in my applications and i was really just near tears from all the stress.. but then Miss Alice came out of her office and gave me a Peanut Butter Cup. a peanut butter cup!!!! it was such a lovely and unexpected gesture. she said she saw my blog and read that i love these pb cups, so she gave me one. thank you Miss Alice :) you really made my day so much better.
other heaven-sent things that gave me encouragement over the past few days and taught me to sit back and smile :
upon telling him i was stressed -
jeremy says:
i would kill to be in your shoes
upon checking my Friendster page after a long time of leaving it idle, i saw this testimonial from a former collegemate whom i barely spoke to -
Posted 11/24/2007 2:31 am
being on the other side of the world, fully qualified on the m-16, and an expert at hand to hand combat….. i think its safe to say now i always thought you were pretty
and upon checking my email -
Dear Su Ann,
Yes, this is fine. We will want a record, but you can apply as a first year.
and then Martian MMSed me a picture of himself at work <3 the best pick-me-up ever <3 my boyfriend is so yummy.
i know i keep saying this but. i'm just very thankful for all my friends who love me and accept me for who i am and always forgive me for my mistakes. i was talking to a few of my friends some days ago about this girl we know who's got a serious attitude problem. mid-rant, ben interrupted and said - ’she has no friends wan’. for some reason, that made me feel really uncomfortable. probably because what he said is true - she really doesn’t have any friends. and then i felt really bad that we were sitting there and complaining about what a horrid person she is. cos at the end of the day, we all have each other, and we can all group together and be allied against anything.. but who does she have? nobody.
seriously, i cannot imagine a life without having anybody to turn to. nobody to laugh with, nobody to back you up, nobody who understands you, nobody who would listen to you, nobody sincere - the thought of this vacuum is so scary that my stomach churns just thinking about it. i have so many people whom i love and who love me back, and i think i don’t spend enough time being grateful that i am not alone in this world.
donno lah i am so emo now i want to call all my friends and tell them how much i love them =((
i guess the point is, i could be a little bit more sympathetic towards the girl we were talking about. it’s a chicken and egg thing.. does she have no friends because she’s so unlikeable, or is she unlikeable because she has no friends? if it’s the latter, then i am to blame as well, no? and how horrible it must be to have nobody. Martian recently said the same thing about another unrelated person - that she had no friends and so i could be a bit more understanding about the situation.. and it was something that really hit home. if i were in the other person’s shoes and had no friends, i’m sure a little bit of warmth from an almost-stranger would be so very welcome.
sigh okay lah i promise to be super nice to these two girls if i ever see them again. like, SUPER NICE. even if they’re mean and rude to me again.
yay kevin is coming to pick me up from starbucks. kevin, when you read this, you must know that i lurve you to bits and that you are one of my best friends in the whole wide world. even though you forgot to bring me my present yesterday and even though you hang out with jeremy and eric more than you hang out with me :(
on another note, today i saw a really awesome quote on my college’s Program Director’s desk -
“Those who say it can’t be done shouldn’t interrupt the people who are doing it.”
:))))
that is so ME right now. i feel like wearing that quote on my forehead. full speed ahead!!!!
and this is me squealing : “ALBERT LOOK!!! the umbrella matches my socks!!!!”
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1. Jeff from LA | December 19th, 2007 at 1:21 am
You should feel honored. I loved that quote that you found so much that I put it up on my Facebook profile, even citing that you found it.
Also, I’m glad that you realize that you have such a great group of friends. Many people take their wonderful friends for granted, which is a terrible waste.
2. caryn | December 19th, 2007 at 1:49 am
*hugs*
nothing like a good quote and the sight of someone you love to make your day.
3. Bernard | December 19th, 2007 at 2:25 am
*another huge bear hug :) and now im sitting in front my laptop studying for exams… sigh..
*ffk ffk ffk-er …. hahahaah :) see ya after exams pau
4. TheRealAnonymous | December 19th, 2007 at 2:47 am
*waves frantically*
ME! ME! ME! Call ME! =)
Yes, you know you love meeee…. =) hahaha… *perasan*
Anywayz… i’m HOME! =) Till early Jan… and betta yet, I’ll be ON LEAVE TILL THEN! So buzz meee…. we go out do all the things on our ‘to do list’ that hasn’t been done yet… =)
5. Artificially Timtam | December 19th, 2007 at 4:10 am
u used the word vacillating! ahahaha
oh anyway sorry yar. got phone issues. will call after it’s all sorted out.
6. Jonathan | December 19th, 2007 at 7:16 am
Moments like this are necessary. As sad as it may sound, it makes you think of the things you have, the people you live around with, and everything that has been God-given.
Probably once you lose this feeling, you’ll lose the goody-goody-i-appreciate-you feeling, but it is moments like this that really opens your heart to people around you
7. Jonathan | December 19th, 2007 at 7:17 am
Moments like this are necessary. As sad as it may sound, it makes you think of the things you have, the people you live around with, and everything that has been God-given.
Probably once you lose this feeling, you’ll lose the goody-goody-i-appreciate-you feeling, but it is moments like this that really opens your heart to people around you
8. Michelle | December 19th, 2007 at 8:21 am
I feel this way too. I guess the emo disease has spread. OMG! You should chat with me sometime. I really want to meet you. =D
9. sheon | December 19th, 2007 at 10:05 am
“being on the other side of the world, fully qualified on the m-16, and an expert at hand to hand combat….. i think its safe to say now i always thought you were pretty” …wow…i love this!!
my family is my world …and my friends are my everything…………………
10. jeremy | December 19th, 2007 at 10:06 am
haha… good to know that you took a step back and realized that you have so many wonderful things going on in your life… what you’ve accomplished, what you have, who you are. i guess it helps take away the stress and frustration from the tasks you’re trying to tackle at the moment. but always keep fighting and pushing the limits though…
i would still kill to be you… the guy version of you though.
kevin is my housemate and so is eric, you CAN’T break up THE 3 “MA-LAUS” YO!
11. wenqi | December 19th, 2007 at 10:25 am
awww… we love you too su ann! and hey, thank youu for being my friend too. i hope i’ll see u soon.
and btw, u sure u can be SUPER NICE to the 2 girls the next time u bump into them? 100% positive?
12. k0k | December 19th, 2007 at 2:04 pm
Uhh… got no one to turn to…
Sounds like me, but I’ve always been able to hold myself above water. Emo loners are cool. So Byronic and sexy too xD
Here’s a quote,
“Save planet Earth! It’s the only planet with chocolates!”
13. pinkpau | December 19th, 2007 at 6:25 pm
jeff : is it not the best quote? :))) it shall be my life’s mantra from now on.
caryn : yeah and ice cream. le sigh.
bernard : i’m sorryyyyyyyy :( i’m damn lousy right :(((
therealanon : u know whats the sad thing.. i’m only free after early jan =( our to-do list is growing damn mouldy!
artificially : FASTER LAH =( im waiting!
jonathan : well i hope i dont lose this feeling then. though i think i can be quite prone to getting too caught up in panic and all that, and then forgetting what’s important :\
michelle : not anytime soon babe! i’m on a self-imposed house arrest
sheon : yea i thought it was pretty cool too :) this guy and i almost never spoke. and i feel the same way as u about friends and family :)))
jeremy : hahaha the guy version of me would be a real player. is that you?! the guy version of me also would most definitely NOT be in a local racing movie… :P sigh sorry la jem, kevin loves me more than you… he got me the most kick ass xmas present. u got anot!?
wenqi : yaaa pls come this weekend :( even tho i will probably not get to see u, its nice to know u are in the same town! HAHAHA i knew you would understand what i was talking about!!! mwahh. eh but i will really try to be nice lah =(
k0k : doesnt the loneliness get to you sometimes? i dunno.. i understand how loners are, but dont you want some kinda best-friend thing every now and then? just for a few minutes?
14. pinkshirtz | December 19th, 2007 at 6:27 pm
glad to know ur finally having a nice day! haha.commenting to u right in front of lingerie xixili shop in pavilion. nice christmas atmosphere here. some shops r quite interestingly unique!
merry christmas!
this comment is courtesy of xixili’s free wifi!
15. ms alice | December 19th, 2007 at 6:52 pm
hey girl…no worries..it was my pleasure :)
hang on there..things will be fine….
16. michellesy | December 19th, 2007 at 7:59 pm
Babe, it’s good to see you happy again!
*Hugs*
ps: Congrats on being accepted as a fresher too! =)
17. michellesy | December 19th, 2007 at 8:02 pm
pps:
*Wolf-whistles*
Look at ‘em gams - gotta love those socks, sweetie! =D
18. masdie | December 19th, 2007 at 9:35 pm
Oi…wtf are you doing opening the umbrella indoors??
19. sZe | December 19th, 2007 at 10:35 pm
omgosh, your socks so cute, you look like alice in wonderland, btw was wondering if that pic was taken by a lomo camera?
20. Christine | December 19th, 2007 at 10:40 pm
Well, the quote is really really true! dont interrupt someone, and even worse, dont make the others fall with yoU!
i met someone, kinda bad…He iss unlikeable (to most of us) but still he has lots of friends, friends that are alike. So, they group together. sigh…so, why dont you group those 2 together..haha!
*hugs* cheer up!
21. pinkpau | December 20th, 2007 at 12:46 am
pinkshirtz : xixili has free wifi?!?! hahahaha that is so awesome
ms alice : i really really hope so :(
michellesy : i wish i was accepted :P but not yet.
masdie : i’m not very superstitious :P
sze : nope, it’s a fish eye lens i believe!
christine : hahaha omg grouping them together…… hahahaha… i would love to see what happens :P the both of them are actually very similar in my opinion. and oh i’m very very cheered up.. :D had a great dinner so im quite happy. hee.
22. k0k | December 20th, 2007 at 2:38 am
Best friend things, eh? They are generally non-human though (if you like puppies, I got some cute strays in Kodak colours in my latest post). As for the more human varieties, mitchsy up there have played best friend to me a few times before when I needed to bitch. And miscellaneous other strangers on the internet. A lot less liability than having real life best friends, IMO :P
But that’s just me, o’ course.
23. ria | December 20th, 2007 at 10:15 am
Indeed you are loved! that’s because you’re absolutely lovable ^__^ won’t give you a hug today tho as i’ve got the sniffles and am mighty contagious. :P take care dear! and lotsa luck on your exams!
24. jay | December 20th, 2007 at 11:51 am
Two silly things:
1. You mind installing an iphone friendly plugin? Maybe I’ll e-mail you more in detail.
2. I am just crazy or just stupid or are you just wearing one sock?!
25. thegeekinpink | December 20th, 2007 at 10:13 pm
lol your friendster testimonial just cracked me up so much. oh sigh which reminds me is there a way to like transfer all your friendster testimonials to your facebook? GAH! keeping my friendster account open just for that very reason, too sakit hati to give up those sincere and heartfelt testis from close friends
26. LiYing | December 21st, 2007 at 12:12 am
hey su ann!
great to see that amidst all the frenetic moments you still find time to have fun. I think it’s in those moments that you truly find just simple little things to be truly meaningful. hold on there because all will be fine in the end, trust me. =)
oh and would you mind me adding you on facebook?
27. pinkpau | December 21st, 2007 at 2:43 am
k0k : liability… hahaha gawds you’re so business-minded. the puppies on your blog are so cute!!!! it’s a milo dog!!!!!
ria : awwww get well soon! so i can have hugs. teehee
jay : an iphone plugin? like for my blog? hahaha thou art observant … i was actually wearing two different socks. the other one is black lace.
thegeekinpink : i wish there were a way to do that too :( but i think i stopped recieving proper testimonials on friendster for about a year already :P now it’s just all that animated graphics and weird copy+paste inspirational quotes. haha
liying : yes :) when i find myself in these moments, i always feel very thankful. cos i keep forgetting to relax. sure, go ahead and add!
28. Albert Ng | December 21st, 2007 at 4:58 pm
I’m going to go with the self-fulfilling I-am-a-Sagi and I don’t have a circle of friends but I know more cliques. That said I don’t have a best friend or that kind of emotional dependency (I believe that the concept of best friends will be outgrown by a certain age depending on the individual).
However, it is sad that not being un-close already makes one prone to gossip.
thegeekinpink: Yeah man, Friendster testimonials circa 2005 were REAL.
29. june | December 22nd, 2007 at 2:49 am
at one point i used to be late for my morning classes because of your blog. hehe. wake up at 7.15, berus gigi get dressed up etc for 15 mins, prepare breakfast for 5-10 mins, have breakfast in front of comp while reading your blog and before i know it, it’s already past 8. time to rush to uni! :)
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