Archive for January, 2008
what would you do with a million dollars?
i would spend it on my friends and family.
but because i’m so lazy, i’d buy all their stuff online and then get everything delivered right to their doorstep :P
i shamefully admit that i’ve never used eBay in my life and I don’t know how to :( but i do know how to use MUDAH.com.my because it’s damn easy!!! it’s like a Malaysian cyber marketplace where you can buy and sell stuff; very simple to use and extremely fuss-free. so forget hunting down people and beating traffic jams to get to the malls, MUDAH.com.my is where I’ll buy all my presents when I have a million dollars :P
behold my choice of gifts!!!
for Martian, a healthy salad shop (RM 48,000)! there is no bigger health food lover than my boyfriend. sigh. maybe if i bought him a whole salad shop, he would get sick of the health food and then we can go out and eat PROPER FOOD! like McDonalds.
for Sieutheng, a nice and vast Lot Getah (RM 135,000). You know why I know why!
for Aira, I’ll get you Draco Malfoy :D but you must share him with me!
for Ivan, another red MyVi 1.3M (RM37,000) that looks like yours, now that your younger brother has usurped your car :\
for Waimin, a Portable USB Drum Kit (RM 220) to hone that drumming talent again!
for Jovann, a wealth and protection-giving Celestial Frog!!!!!! hahahahahaha only because you already have everything and i don’t know what to give you! may the Celestial Frog give you long life and thicker angpaus this CNY :P
for all of us at 5Science1, another Bukit Jalil Bungalow (RM 2million) for us to party in now that Freddy has left for the US :( yalar yalar i know this exceeds my RM 1 million budget, but it’s a NECESSARY purchase! we all NEED this!
for my dad, a brand new Sony PSP (RM 520) cos i know you secretly want one but don’t dare to buy cos you scared ppl laugh at you
for my mum and Martian’s mum, a Mahjong and Gin Rummy Travel Set (RM 68). hahaha cos they’re both such mahjong kakis
for Martian’s dad, a Kingston 1gig USB Pen Drive! (RM 33) because he said he needed one the other day, and no person of the 21st century should live without a pendrive!
for Tall Brother, a 12-in-1 pack of tissue paper cos you use sooooooo much tissue
for Short Brother, E-Tuition for Form 3 Students! go and STUDY LAH YOU pmr this year -___-
for Timtam, actually I wanted to buy you a bass guitar but Mudah.com.my didn’t have one for sale :( so allow me to buy you a boat (RM 15,000). now you can come back to KL whenever you want
for Azlan, i’ll buy you a new Satria 1.8 GTi (RM 37,000). i know it’s not an R3, but i bet the light on this one doesn’t make buzzy sounds. hehehehe.
for Beaver, i wanted to get you a you-know-what, but then aiyah don’t have. so I found you something better! a Cyber Café!!! (RM 23,000) so you can play Dota for free everyday.
for Johanny, a Washer & Dryer for your new home!
for Hock Chuan, I’ll buy you can openers (RM 1.50 each) because every international student needs one to survive :D
for Vvens, a Canon Selphy Photo Printer (RM 300). cos I know you will put it to good use!
for Kenny, the Osim uZap (RM 450). hehehehe
for Kimberly, a Magic Hula Hoop (RM 38)! i dont know why it’s Magic… but since it’s Magic it must be better than your bamboo hula hoop :P
for Suanie, a 4-in-1 Treadmill because you want to be a lean machine but dowan to pay gym membership fees. so I bring the gym to your home!
for KY, a Nintendo Wii (RM 1,200) so you and Kimberly can play tennis until kingdom come
for Val, a Curling Iron (RM 30) so you can have curls or straight hair whenever you feel like it!
for George, a whole Recording Studio so you and your boys can jam and cut albums all day all night for totally free!
for Kiasu Andrew, Tze Ching and Hishy, an entire Carton of Milo (RM 35)!!! cos every Malaysian abroad misses their Milo Ais.
for John Leong, a Micro Soothe Portable Massager (RM 29) because you’re always so stressed. john don’t be stressed ok? now you can have massages anywhere anytime
for Wenqi, a Dell Inspiron Laptop (RM 1,200). you NEED a laptop so that Stewie doesn’t pretend to be you on MSN and try to trick incriminating statements out of us -_____-
for Skyler, a pair of Christian Dior Sunglasses (RM 150) ^____^ nice anot!
for Michelle, I’ll buy you a Lancome Black Bag (RM 65) that hopefully a cibai bird will not shit on!
for Suet Li, a REAL Gucci bag (RM 1,500) so that you don’t have to buy fake LVs and be sad when you discover its fake :(
for Stewie, here is a Sony Ericsson Bluetooth Headset (RM 120) because such bad things happen to your Bluetooth headsets all the time
for Song Jun, a bowl of Curry Mee wtf cos i know you miss curry mee. And some more it’s only RM 4!
for myself, a Toy Poodle puppy!!! (RM 800) toy poodles are so cute *tears* I only wish Mudah.com.my had a Milo Dog for sale.
and for Datuk Seri Dr Chua Soi Lek, a Mini Spy-Camera Detector!!! it blinks when there are recording devices around, so you will never be caught with your pants down again :P for only RM88!
MUDAH.com.my is seriously so freaking easy to use - i am very satisfied with my million dollar browsing! i may even consider selling some of my dresses and bags there one day. but for now, let’s all just wait for my RM 1 million to be earned so that I can buy everyone gifts :)
p/s: if anyone has cute mugs, vintage clothes or books in good condition, do put them up on Mudah.com.my!! i’m looking for stuff like that. am also looking for quirky decor items for my room at Martian’s. so go go go! do put up some of your stuff for sale, then let me know :)
January 31st, 2008
at the Youth 08 q&a the other day, us 4 bloggers were asked among other questions how we find so much stuff to blog about. my answer was that there is so much going on in our world and within yourself that it’s impossible not to find inspiration everywhere you go. if i had all the time in the world, i’d probably be blogging every few hours (which i used to do, if anyone remembers my pinkskyes blog from the 2001-2005 days!). but alas there are time constraints :) yet there truly is so much to blog about and share.
some things in point form:
- i find that in all 19 years and 3 months of my life, i tend to do ridiculously stupid things when i am in sleepy stupor. this month seems to be exceptionally pregnant with such stupid things. a lot of the time and when already knee-deep in aforementioned things, i get this naggy feeling at the back of my mind going, ’stop it! stop it! sleep on this before you do anything!!’, but in the fire and zeal of sleepiness, anger and any other peripheral emotion i am feeling, i always forge ahead and do it, bravely telling myself that the courageous and principled don’t sleep on their next step of action. apparently neither do the foolish. siiiiiiiiiiiiiigh. lesson learned. next time i’m going to allow myself 12 hours of defusing time or sleep before i do anything this reckless.
- there was a bus crash last Friday. it was KL-bound from Penang, and driven by YET ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE MONSTERS who have scores of summons against them but still want to drive buses and put the lives of so many people in danger. apparently this particular bus driver was speeding and SMSing in the heavy rain. SMSing!!! this crash is hitting a little bit closer to home because Jolene’s friend was one of the 3 who passed away, and Waffle’s cousin was very badly injured. this is so unbelievable. why don’t these people learn? did last year’s slew of bus crashes not teach anyone anything? resign if you’re not doing your job right. your carelessness has cost lives. i saw the facebook group dedicated to Jolene’s friend Nian Ning - she sounds like an absolutely amazing girl. straight a’s for UPSR, PMR, SPM, was in medical school, a debater and public speaker, gorgeous. and so very young. everything seems so small when you think about how a young life has just been taken away and the kind of grief her friends, family and boyfriend must be going through. Jolene’s call of action against the bus company Konsortium and the bus driver can be found here.
- i went back to my high school today for yet another round of the filling-out of college application forms. my counselor wasn’t in her office, so i let myself in. there were two little girls in there, and i asked one of them if she was my counselor’s daughter. she said yes. so i asked the other girl if they were sisters, and she piped up with, ‘No, we are best friends!’. so simple and so innocently straightforward. i used to say things like that when i was a kid. it was so nice being a kid.. ignorance really is bliss sometimes. nowadays i say things and wonder a few hours later if what i said was the right thing. and then i obsess about it. and then i get stressed and emo to wong wenqi wtf.
- Sweeney Todd is an amazing movie. bring a paper bag with you when watching Cloverfield. i cant wait for The Lovely Bones and The Time Traveler’s Wife to be out!!!
- i got google searches for romantic Vday restaurants as early as December :P so if you have yet to pick a restaurant for your Valentine’s Day dinner, i’ve got a review list of 10 restaurants that i wrote last year, that you can choose from. Part 1, Part 2. i’ve got another 5 cozy and romantic restaurants that i may write about sometime soon if i feel like it :)
- aira was telling me the other day how a young biology teacher that we had in high school used to talk to her about me. she told aira that i reminded her of herself during her younger troublemaker days, but the difference was that i had friends and she didnt. sigh i really am very lucky to have my friends, because they are the coolest and best friends you will ever find. high school was what it was because of them. even to this day, they empathize with everything that i feel and never once tell me that the problems i face are small and petty. and they help me through these things so diligently and kindly. sigh. sometimes i dont know how i deserve the friends that i have. /emo. jovann stop watching tv and come and hang out with us sometimes!!!
- i will find it in myself to not be so angry. i will find it in myself to not be so sulky. i will find it in myself to not worry so much. i will find it in myself to be hopeful, optimistic, forgiving and happy. and i will find it in myself to sleep on things before i take drastic actions. and most of all, i will find it in myself to not regret the things i do, and to learn from them.
- God is good.
- AND!!! the notorious Part 3 of the Lingam Video is out!!! mosey over here for the video and the transcript of the conversation :P
January 28th, 2008
over the weekend, i attended a fantastic event called Youth ‘08 - We Are The Trendsetters, organized by Youth Malaysia. it was held at the Putra World Trade Center, and basically it was a hugeeeee fair of every single youth hobby/activity you can think of under one roof. street dancing, singing, graffiti, graphic design, movies, basketball, futsal, blogging, gaming, fashion….. EVERYTHING was there and it was all executed to flawlessness.
the event was damn nice lah :( i was so jealous as i was weaving in and out of the crowd checking out all the booths and activities; it is my dream to organize an event as big and successful as this! all the other events i’ve organized previously seem so small and insignificant compared to Youth ‘08. le sigh! time to get off your lazy butt and do something big, lim su ann!
and i will get the chance to :) there are two events coming up in the next 6 months that i will be organizing. am very excited!!!! my party-throwing engine is just raring to go.
i was at Youth ‘08 for two reasons: the Youth Entrepreneur Convention - which is a convention featuring some 10 to 15 young entrepreneurs who have made it big in their respective fields despite their young age - and also the Traffic Jam Blogger’s Party - a big bloggers meet of sorts.
3 friends were speaking at the entrepreneur’s convention - Stewie, Khailee and Kenny, so i really wanted to be there early for all their sessions. BUT NO, of course i had to be SUPER LATE… and so i missed Stewie’s and Khailee’s talks :( stupid wan lah i dont know why i cannot ever be on time for anything!!! i missed about 6 hours of the convention, and only just made it in time for Kenny’s talk. his speech’s title was: The Unpopular Boy Behind The Popular Blog, and it was about how far he’s come from an unpopular boy back in school to the colossal blogger whom everyone knows today. (Kenny your speech so inspiring *___* but tell me, how important is likeability as a blogger!!! hehehehhee. you know what was the other question i wanted to ask you ah! i wanted to ask you what political party you support wtf. see what you say then wtf.)
after that was the Traffic Jam Blogger’s Party; it was co-organized by Nuffnang so all Nuffnang bloggers were invited. it was great lah seeing so many bloggers together :) it was good catching up with everyone, and i also met a lot of new people whom i never knew read my blog. i bumped into this girl in the bathroom who blurted out - “you haven’t been updating lately!”. haha that was so funny.
pictures!:
1. that’s Kenny onstage speaking to a huge crowd of bright, soon-to-be youth entrepreneurs of Malaysia
2. Stewie how does it feel to be held onto lovingly by us 3 gorgeous girls wtf! Liew Suet Li you should be here in this picture!
3. Skyler loves me :D I love Skyler!
4. that’s Doc Oct Doc Ock (SORRY SCOTT) from Spiderman trying to eat me, and he even had those super cool tentacles coming out of his costume, but you cant see it in this picture :(
5. me and the not-so-shy-after-all Michelle C :D
6. Prakash, who taught me that happiness is a choice. thank you P :)
7. all of Albert’s and my pictures look exactly like this. albert i know you got nice pictures of me onstage. faster send!
8. HAHAHA role reversal! Smashpop is doing The Pout! and i am doing the Superman.
9. okay pose properly. you cannot see Pop’s belt from here but rest assured it’s damn funny and lame hahahaha. but of course, i want one :P
10. photo taken specially for Martian. he always says i am an exhibitionist because i never draw the curtains when i’m changing. haha. i am the Exhibitionist Exhibitor!
11. this is KY, whose blog is the best street food guide to KL. KY did you know that Kin Kin chili pan mee opened near my house!!! ^_____^
12. Kennysia, Cheesie, Pinkpau and Nicole onstage being ruthlessly interviewed about our blogs! Shaolin Tiger was invited to be interviewed that day too but he is a very very busy man :(
13. according to Linora i am pledging for world peace. according to Yat i am singing Negaraku. but actually i was just talking about my toenails. wtf.
14. Skyler took this photo of our shoes cos she doth liketh our footwear. you will NOT believe at what a bargain Ringo got her gorgeous white booties for T___T i do covet.
15. some of us girls :)
16. me and the very sexy Linora! go nang her posts on Innit and she will be a very happy person :D
17. this is Justin Bananachan. i was like HAHAHA when i found out he was going to be the one interviewing us four bloggers. Justin why didn’t you ask me a question about Malaysia’s taxis and policemen! why!!! *angst*
18. me and the fabulous Ringo! Ringo i love your hair like this please keep it lovely and curly forever and ever!
19. Kennysia and his handsome new haircut. Kenny faster say which political party you support!
20. Wenqi whom i love with all my heart, and Yat who always looks that stoned in pictures, and me doing a stupid face. that day i had to look for a proper photo of myself for an article and i COULD NOT FIND A SINGLE ONE because in almost every picture i was either making a face or grinning like an idiot -_-
21. Tocky who is back from the UK yay!, and Stewie
22. Michelle, who is the happiest intern :D she’s so cute right!
23. Ringo, Michelle, Skyler, me, Wenqi
24. and this is us hanging out with Ronald McDonald. twister fries forever!
being amongst so many people who love blogging made me think a lot when i got back home that day. i’ve got so many thoughts on blogging that i would love to share and discuss. but that shall be left for another day because it’s like 7 in the morning and i really should be getting some sleep. le sigh! and my name is still Colbie.
January 23rd, 2008
happiness is a choice, he smiled at me.
sometimes it evades you, i said quietly. then it’s no longer a choice you have the luxury of making.
no, happiness is always a choice, he insisted, beaming brightly.
i went home and thought long and hard about it. after putting everything side by side. left to right. up and over each other. i’ve learnt that, yes, happiness is a choice. even if it evades you, it is still a choice. it is always a choice.
i choose to be happy today even though it is difficult to be. and because there is nothing big to be happy about right now, i will choose to find joy in something small. this isn’t as hard as i think it to be, because there will always be little things around us that we oft overlook in the pursuit of bigger things. so i will take this tiny, almost crackable, ounce of joy… and i will turn it into something that is bright, cheerful and bigger than me. as long as i can make it bigger than me, i will be happy. so the small thing i choose to find joy in today is: the song Bubbly by Colbie Caillat. i’m gonna wrap myself in it like frozen fish in cling-wrap.
It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Where ever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Where ever you go
someone i know calls me Colbie because this song reminds him of me. it’s so perfect.
so, for today and maybe even for tomorrow, my name is Colbie. because i am happy.
January 22nd, 2008
today i’m choosing to blog about loyalty. i dont quite know what the point of this post will be or what i want to say, and i’ve still got a lot of conflicting ideas about the topic, but i believe my non-existent message will unravel itself as long as i continue typing.
i am aggressively loyal to the people i love and care most about, and this is a loyalty that transcends all logic and reason. my best friends could be the worst people on earth and i would still love them always. for instance, sieutheng can be very selfish sometimes but i dont care because she’s sieutheng and i love her. waimin tends to push us away when she’s in trouble, but i will still always be there for her because she is waimin. i’m very anti-fur, and even though tzeching is like ‘fuck all you fur activists la have you not felt how soft mink/fox/rabbit fur is!’ (quoted verbatim from her blog wtf!), i will still always love her because she is pang tze ching and we used to trade sweet valley books wtf.
sometimes i struggle with this kind of loyalty and i wonder if i’m making the right decisions. i dont know what exactly the struggle is but there just is a weird tension between my principles and my loyalty. like the fur thing for instance - i would immediately dislike any stranger who said anything remotely close to what tzeching said, but i would never harbour such thoughts against tze ching. when she says things like that, i just go haiyaaahhh why this tze ching so like that wan! and then i’ll continue chatting with her about our mutual love for grey’s anatomy and pretty handbags. and then there’s also the fact that i hate all my best friends’ evil ex-boyfriends simply because they broke my best friends’ hearts. that’s loyalty. but is it fair to these ex-boyfriends? granted they probably don’t really care, but it is an unfair judgment nevertheless because i don’t know their side of the story. but then again does such a judgment matter if it doesnt affect their lives in any way and is only brought up when a good ex-boyfriend-bashing sleepover session is in order? you see what i mean when i say there is a weird tension between my loyalty and what is right?
i guess what i’m trying to say is - i generally don’t like to judge people i’ve not encountered or who have never done anything wrong to me, BUT THEN this rule doesn’t apply anymore when it’s my best friends or family who have been wronged by other parties. and that even in situations where my friends and family are wrong and do things that are totally against my principles, i don’t fault or disrespect them. all that stuff just goes right over my head. it’s like a blind love thing.
some days i like this part of myself. some days i dont.
there is a second facet to this whole loyalty issue that i’d like to touch on. i have a story of me, my friend Aaron, a girl Belinda whom everyone hates, and a guy Chuck whom everyone hates. my friend Aaron hates Chuck, ok? and i really hate Belinda. conflict: my friend Aaron really likes Belinda for reasons unknown to the universe and all of its inhabitants and i swear this is not an exaggeration. a bit of background - Aaron has a lot of friends who are very loyal to him, and i am one of those friends. loyalty to Aaron is a default dislike / contempt / non-contact with Chuck; basically if you are friends with Chuck, you are not a friend of Aaron’s.
when i first met Aaron, i instantly took a liking to him. to me, he was one of those genuine guys whom i felt close to very quickly and could really click with. i’d met Chuck before and i didnt think much of him, but when Aaron told me all the stories there were to tell and i had digested all of them, my position on Chuck was now a total 100% dislike and i wouldn’t have touched him with a 6 foot pole. why? because i trust Aaron and i believe that everything he tells me is true. even though Chuck had never personally done anything wrong to me.
now we bring in Belinda, whom i absolutely loathe for many, many reasons. Aaron knows this, and he also knows that EVERYBODY (again, not an exaggeration) doesn’t like her and also hold the same contempt for her that i do. yet he dismisses all of our views, scolds some of us, and continues protecting Belinda and trying to placate her. he takes ’stuff’ from some of us to give to her, which makes us really angry and confused. at the same time he keeps announcing his complete neutrality in this Belinda vs The World issue, when it is very obvious to everybody that he is in fact biased in her favor. he cites that he does this because Belinda is loyal to him.
my question is, is it fair to dismiss everybody else’s loyalty for Belinda’s loyalty? the rest of us external observers know why she is ‘loyal’ and it is for completely materialistic and selfish reasons. Aaron of course refuses to see this. i cant speak for everyone else involved, but i know that my feelings have been extremely hurt. i showed him nothing but unwavering support in his crusade against Chuck, but when it comes to Belinda - my opinion doesnt matter, he doesn’t believe me, and he chooses her over me and the rest of us. it’s hurtful. it makes me wonder about loyalty. is there a loyalty that is more important than others? right now i fail to see what is so noble and great about this material-based loyalty that Belinda shows him, compared to the collective loyalty that the rest of us have given him.
the third facet of this loyalty issue - what happens when someone takes advantage of the loyalty his or her friends show? without going too much into detail because i am really just. so. tired, the story goes that there is this friend of ours whom we love very, very much. but lately he’s been taking advantage of his eternal get-out-of-jail-free card and taking certain liberties with us. we’ve told him that we don’t appreciate him using us like this, but it falls on deaf ears and he actually starts lying to us so that we don’t realize what he’s doing. and of course, we believe all his lies because he’s our friend.
some of us are extremely angry at him and want to cut him out of our circle. i’m a little bit angry too, but loyalty dictates that i stick to him no matter what, even though he has become this conniving little lying thing that i no longer recognize. i cant tell you what he does and what he lies about, and i understand that this lack of information is probably pretty crucial to any decision one would have to make.. but what would you do if you were me? he’s not changing his ways. so do i stay with him and give him space to be himself, at the risk of propagating his selfishness and ignorance… OR do i work with this boycott on him so that he eventually comes to his senses and learns that he cant get away with treating his friends like shit?
loyalty. such a multi-faceted thing. please do leave me any of your views and comments on this topic, i would very much appreciate it :)
EDIT: i’ve just heard that some silly person thinks she’s Belinda, and she went and lodged a little complaint to the person she thinks is Aaron. all i can say is, the world does not revolve around you, ok? you may for some obscure reason think that it does, but i can assure you that reality is far from your assumption. if you think you have lots of things in common with Belinda, then that is a very, very, very sad thing to realize about yourself, because Belinda is a horrible and rude person whom nobody likes.
do NOT try getting me in trouble with this person whom you think is Aaron. you are, as always, really pushing the limits of my patience. just try to be a nice person for once; it’s not very hard. as of now and in relation to the issues brought up in this post, my BEST FRIENDS are going through some problems, and i intend to be there to support them. clearly, you are not one of my best friends. so, do not hijack this and turn it into one of those chapters in the elaborate movie of your life. in a nutshell, please dont be so damn perasan.
January 20th, 2008
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