well i guess it happens to everybody. the feeling of rejection. it sucks, we know. we all share the familiar lament in life. but do cheer up! (which i think you are quite capable of) i’m sure you can find any cheap thrill to amuse yourself. Haha! :D

Oh and like everybody else, i shall comment on how this post was written. :p

beautifully written. doubtlesly, you’re a really wonderful writer. i’ve always adore the way you convey your feelings into words.

keep writing alright. take care. :)

but look on the bright side. he stood outside in the stuffy KL air to wait for you.

and although that is a simple gesture, it is one of love. do appreciate what you have, i sometimes really really envy you- all you have, beauty, brains, columbia, etc etc.. (my dad treats me very well, although sometimes i feel unloved anyway… but somehow i don’t think you are talking bout your dad XD )

oh, sorry bout leaving a novel as a comment. but lastly, you said “aiming to catch the second train somehow feels a lot better than aiming to catch the first but missing it.”

i missed the one of the most important train ride of my life. but despite the tears, i seek solace in knowing that the second will come by, and i can board that one instead. life goes on, so don’t stop chasing the train. =)

The relationship between father and daughter can sometimes be tenuous, and fragile, and fraught with the weight of so many things left unsaid.

And it’s always, always the ones closest to you who possess the power to leave the deepest scar. Because, who better to plunge a knife into your heart, than the person you’re clasping to it?

I can truly say I speak from experience, and yes, the sting of that initial rejection, that feeling of never being good enough, the constraint that comes from dealing in a love that comes with strings attached, never goes away. Thereafter every door slammed in your face and every no meted out to you, recalls that moment when you first realised that you’ll never come first with that person whose approval you most crave.

But Su Ann, it’s obvious that your father loves you so very much, and that his love is reciprocated. And that is why you are a more fortunate daughter that I’ll ever be =)