The Things Tarot Cards Say

July 13th, 2008

i found out earlier today that i can actually use my phone to make video calls. i was spilling over with excitement as i made my first ever video call; it was such a welcome reprieve and felt like something i had been seeking for all my life and finally found. but the call ended quickly and now i am here, wishing for walls to speak to me and for answers to materialize from all these nonsense words that i keep staring at. i also wish for abundant joy but as it turns out i am not going to be part of that. i am lonely and frightened but it’s too late at night to do anything about it. not even a million sighs or silly spiderman vs superman videos are helping tonight. i feel grey. i feel crumpled out of shape. i feel like my heart is beating too softly.

and i am scared to sleep because such cruel things invade my dreams. they eat me inside out, and the worst part is that i can’t control them at all.

Entry Filed under: Musings, Unsent Letters