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• 1. carol  |  November 28th, 2008 at 9:08 pm

  2. if the subway was hijacked today
  and blown up
  and i die
  you would never know that
  you were the first person on
  my mind

  3. remember my plurk on not needing everyone to love me – the people who love me now are the ones who truly matter. I used to think it would be difficult to understand this but it really isn’t.

  4. i am angry
  at you, the one careless and thoughtless constant in my life
  at you, the thoughtless asshole
  at you, who played me
  at you, who forgot my birthday.
  at you, ruiner of plans
  at you, the presumptuous stranger i met for all of 15 seconds
  at you, myself.

  oh yes i am.

  8. all the way for no.8 i miss, miss, miss those times. there were no impossibles, no fear, just the youthful idealism of endless optimism and boundless dreams.

  huggles.

• 2. carol  |  November 28th, 2008 at 9:08 pm

  ohhhhhhhh hey you turned off disqus…

• 3. Alynna  |  November 28th, 2008 at 9:19 pm

  1.
  i cant
  think
  when you are
  screaming
  into my ear

  Not only can I not think, I am also usually staring at random things, pretending to be engaged in a deeper conversation with those inanimate objects, trying desperately not to cry (because I don’t like appearing weak).

  2.
  if the subway was hijacked today
  and blown up
  and i die
  should i be ashamed that
  you were the last person on
  my mind

  Sometimes I am convinced that I think about this too much; it’s got to be abnormal.

  8.
  yesterday when i was sleeping
  i had a dream
  there were trees and big glass windows
  larger than life
  then i woke up with a start
  and realized that i had just uncovered
  a very important part of my childhood
  the one where i was unafraid of
  dreaming
  or people
  i was unafraid of
  anything
  and all i wanted to do was climb the Faraway Tree
  ring bluebells
  and make blackberry tea out of
  paint

  I’m still waiting for my dream.

• 4. Chloe Tay  |  November 28th, 2008 at 9:21 pm

  Are you feeling remorse for the mistake you have done before? The last paragraph makes me feel like you are kinda regret for them.

• 5. kopiais  |  November 28th, 2008 at 10:03 pm

  Hating the unwanted results is not the solution.
  Hating the mumbling birds whispering things you didn’t want to hear is not the solution either.

  I did that a lot. I hate them, and I want to tell the world about them. Just to get it off the chest.

  Hope you’ll find comfort at one point of time and let the sorrow go…

  *pray harder* m finding mine too!!

  cheers mat…

• 6. Michelle  |  November 28th, 2008 at 10:42 pm

  Twelve ways of looking at Su Ann’s poem but only one word to describe it:

  Filled.

• 7. reallybites  |  November 28th, 2008 at 10:45 pm

  so can relate to #5. esp the birthday (hohoho) and the last one.

• 8. Kiran  |  November 28th, 2008 at 10:55 pm

  there is just too much emotions in those 11 pieces. it’s a tricky one ;)

• 9. Owen  |  November 28th, 2008 at 11:03 pm

  5) if there is, at any point, your are blaming yourself? DONT!!
  it isnt your fault to begin with.the ugly fact of life, is that guys tend to not be, should i say “faithful” in their relationships? zz

  i dont see a reason why he wouldnt choose you over her in the first place..

  disclaimer: if i misinterpreted, my bad x_x

• 10. Abby  |  November 28th, 2008 at 11:20 pm

  11.
  i feel it. i know it.
  everything that i’ve been doing
  up till today
  is all
  wrong.

  I know it too..
  I love this post.

• 11. minty  |  November 28th, 2008 at 11:44 pm

  7.
  i will admit it
  i am possessive
  because i found him first
  or rather, he found me first
  if there’s any right person
  it’s not going to be either of you.
  you are merely on
  the periphery
  so back off
  back the fuck off

  So very true.

• 12. Hilary  |  November 29th, 2008 at 12:15 am

  to no. 4:

  I only believe that it’s the best food on earth when cooked by an African with love.

  <3

• 13. Natsue  |  November 29th, 2008 at 1:08 am

  I wanted to climb the Faraway Tree too… I wish there really is one…

• 14. hui wen  |  November 29th, 2008 at 1:21 am

  I used to learned piano in Jean Gan! And I believed (still believe?) in Faraway Trees and Topsy Turvy Lands. :P

  I can identify with your feelings… except for point 10! Ghost ar! T_T

• 15. mac  |  November 29th, 2008 at 1:46 am

  The first thoughts that came to my mind in response …

  1.
  Wish I was
  In Bagan
  In November

  2.
  You mean, like
  The maths tutor
  And not
  Your parents
  Or martian
  Does it matter?
  adriana lima?

  3.
  Were they
  Really the
  Most difficult things?
  There are difficult
  Things that
  Have no solution.
  Can I live with it?

  4.
  Hokkien char
  Wagyu beef
  Sashimi
  Chicken rice
  Ice kacang
  char kuay teow
  maggie mee

  5.
  I am hurt

  6.
  Life was
  So much
  Simpler
  How can i
  Find it again?
  I know I
  Never will.
  I need to write
  Down my thought
  Otherwise they too
  Will one day be gone.

  7.
  I need to
  Let go

  8.
  Read teenagers
  Blogs.

  9.
  I am so
  Jaded.

  10.
  Elvis presley?

  11.
  I need to drop
  All my baggage.

• 16. sylvanna  |  November 29th, 2008 at 2:12 am

  i luff the faraway tree. :) i want to go to the land of take-what-you-want~ and to the land-of-do-as-you-please where i can ride tigers and drive aeroplanes…

  haha and clair de lune reminds me of twilight, which i watched yesterday, and found very bland. -_- then i stayed up late to read the unfinished manuscript of Midnight Sun which was posted on Stephenie Meyer’s website. Did you know she appeared as a cameo in the movie? She was at the diner receiving the plate of food before the camera switched to Bella and Charlie.

  i used to go to Jean Gan for ballet classes before I quit cuz the hours were too early for a lazy pig like me. i remember when i used to get a stamp in my book everytime i attend class and when i’ve got 10 stamps in my book i get to redeem prizes like stickers! hehehehe. ^-^ if i wasn’t a pig, i’d be an awesome ballerina by now.

• 17. kim  |  November 29th, 2008 at 3:27 am

  2.
  if the subway was hijacked today
  and blown up
  and i die
  should i be ashamed that
  you were the last person on
  my mind

  been there (except for a subway being hijacked, it was being stalked home by a man 4 times my size at 3 am in the dingiest part of paris – he even tried to gain access to my room, and it was then when i thought he might really do something to me). felt exactly the same.

• 18. Suit Lin  |  November 29th, 2008 at 4:54 am

  1.
  i cant
  think
  when you are
  screaming
  into my ear

  Not only I can’t think,
  I cannot breath
  I cannot exist because
  all you ever tell me to do
  is to ignore myself.

  5.
  i am angry
  at you, the one careless and thoughtless constant in my life
  at you, the conniving little bitch
  at you, who sold me out
  at you, who forgot my birthday. so now i’ve forgotten yours too
  at you, ruiner of plans
  at you, the presumptuous stranger i met for all of 15 seconds
  at you, myself.

  at myself for not being able to make things right with you.

  10.
  there is a sinister somberness
  hovering above my suede shoes
  i fear that
  i am not alone
  here in this room.

  I fear there is a greater monster,
  Someone lurking in the corner
  Waiting, wanting, hurting and in rage.
  I know one day I will look up
  and see that it is me who’s in that cage.

  11.
  i feel it. i know it.
  everything that i’ve been doing
  up till today
  is all
  wrong.

  and I don’t know
  how to make everything
  from tomorrow onwards
  right.

  Thank you for the opportunity to share. =)

• 19. melissa  |  November 29th, 2008 at 5:00 am

  1. I heard you
  the first time.
  you can turn
  down
  the excessive volume
  now.

  3. Things that are difficult
  can be done differently
  to suit oneself
  and suddenly become
  far easier
  than I once thought they were.
  hurray for individuality

  Try haikus! xD

• 20. Patricia  |  November 29th, 2008 at 5:11 am

  i just want to say this is my favorite post of all the most favorite post i’ve ever favored.

• 21. kate  |  November 29th, 2008 at 5:48 am

  1) i hate it when u shout at me.it made me nervous.i can’t think.
  2) i dun get this. if he/she is the last person to be on ur mind, why is he/she is the one u are thinking of right now?
  3) i look at things too complicatedly when the solution is very easy
  4) cornbread is what i love most now.
  5) u have multiple personality?
  6) ur sundays routine
  7) i deserve him more than anyone else
  8) -
  9) as time passes, things change.
  10) someone else is with me. i can feel his/her presence
  11) feelings can be wrong. think wisely. follow ur brain not ur heart

• 22. fatcat  |  November 29th, 2008 at 6:49 am

  5. I am angry,
  at you who hides everything from me.
  at you who tries so hard to put me down.
  at you who is so self-assuming.
  at you who says you’re an introvert but do the most attention-seeking things.
  at you who confuse me with your petty games.
  at that person who makes everything worse by sucking up to you and feeding your ego.
  at myself for not realizing tt being faithful isn’t in your definition of friendship when you forsook your (then) best friend for me and tt I may become the one getting abandoned one day.
  at myself, for being affected by you when you aren’t worth it.

  8. This yr, some people showed me that friends betray one another, are secretive, don’t help one another because (quote:) “I’m not obliged to.”, talk bad about one another and think the worst of one another’s actions.
  And I realized I am very possessive and I expect myself to be loved as much as I love them.

  mac, i’m a teen but…i still identify with point 8.

• 23. pinkpau  |  November 29th, 2008 at 7:06 am

  carol : carol so fierce! ya i removed disqus. they had some extraneous features i didnt like but couldnt remove. plus no numbering!

  alynna : totally know what u mean about trying not to cry :) and your dream will come im sure.

  chloe : nope.. misinterpretation

  kopiais : haha i have no unwanted results or mumbling birds.. but comfort is always a good thing to wish for. i hope you get yours too :)

  michelle : hehe blackbirds scare me to be honest

  reallybites : ya forget theirs if they forget yours!!!! *vengeful

  kiran : hehe plenty of room for ambiguity

  owen : hahahahahaha WHAT?? hahahahaha i do NOT understand how you arrived at such a conclusion with #5

  abby : time to restrategize for you and me both, then :)

  minty : thank you! someone understands me

  hilary : OMG now that i havent had…

  natsue : we can make our own :)

  hui wen : hahaha ya a ghost who like shoes. just like us :D eh which jean gan did you go to

  mac : hahaha mac, so emo… i like your number 6 best :) and number 4 hehe cos got so many of my favs

  sylvanna : OMG!! the land of do as you please!!!! a bona fide enid blyton fan :D mwahh. haha you must be a fan of the twilight books if you thought twilight was bland! i enjoyed it but mainly because i’ve never read the books. my guy friends were gagging throughout the dialogue. but seriously.. “and then the lion fell in love with the lamb”, “what a stupid lamb”, “what a sick, masochistic lion”. LE SIGH!

  kim : wow crap that is scary. but if you meant that your predator was the last person on your mind, then no, u and i arent on the same wavelength :P though im glad you’re okay from the whole incident. how did you get rid of him?!

  suit lin : you’re most welcome :) i enjoyed reading your thoughts

  melissa : with regards to number 3, that is exactly what i’m doing. which scares me.. that bad, difficult things can be suddenly morally neutral because we tweak it to suit ourselves.

  patricia : glad to hear :)

  kate : are you trying to decipher my post? haha if so i think you’re taking the words a little too literally. and to clarify number 2, the last person on my mind is the last person i thought of right before i “died”. as for number 5, they are all different people lah. haiyoh.

  fatcat: i am reaching out to you with many hugs :( that cant have been easy.

• 24. CloudyRainbows  |  November 29th, 2008 at 7:33 am

  I would think 11 is quite common amongst people. We fake confidence to deceive others into thinking we are. But deep down inside, we never seem to be able to muster up enough to convince ourselves that we are good and we are worth it. No matter how much we smile and puff up our chests in that mirror, the reflection just shows a sad person with droopy shoulders. How hard can one try?

• 25. Nat  |  November 29th, 2008 at 8:05 am

  Hmmm it must be smtg about love…
  She (some girl) likes Martian, but Martian chose you.
  And she still doesnt leave Martian alone.
  You met her once, and wanna be friend w her, but she ’stabbed’ you.
  No.8 is about your dreams, 9 is about memories.
  10 and 11, is maybe about smtg that you regretted doing.

• 26. sweatlee  |  November 29th, 2008 at 8:22 am

  i loveeeeeeeeeeee this post!! love it love it love it very much. i love the one about you reading while waiting for wm to finish her ballet classes. dont know why, just really like that. i’m imagining a young girl, maybe 13? waiting for her best friend. the thought is strangely very comforting.

• 27. grouchy  |  November 29th, 2008 at 8:45 am

  bah. got no conniving little bitches in my life. oh bitches, where art thou, bitches?

• 28. jane doe  |  November 29th, 2008 at 8:59 am

  2 and 11

• 29. xiao  |  November 29th, 2008 at 11:26 am

  I resonate with no.2 the most. I don’t know why, it’s not happening the way it should be.

  5 – recently i’ve felt very anti-social and ended up alienating a lot of people because i realised that deep down, they are very phony friendships and everyone didn’t seem to care that much about each other, other than as fodder for gossip. But i’m also angry for forever looking for a true/real friend, that criteria is such an impossible and elusive requirement. i’m angry for being selfish, for always looking for a friend but no longer seeming like i’m being one. it’s all very mixed :x

  3. this week, i’ve learned that things are easy because i ignored the hard bits that didn’t surface because i didn’t dig it out. Everything has been covered by 19 years of beginner’s luck. and i grudgingly learned that sooner or later my lucky penny’s gonna disappear =(

  and suann, you didn’t reply my last email!

  :)

• 30. DolphyN  |  November 29th, 2008 at 1:19 pm

  i realised number 3 recently too. im coping a lot better with my post grad studies now compared to 2 months ago, even though i still feel damn homesick cuz im halfway across the world from malaysia just like u. =)

  number 7 actually made me wince. Probably cuz i felt like one of the ‘you’ that u meant. Its that point of no return for me right now, and i can tell u, that guilty feeling has settled in a permanent space deep down inside. but i’ve made my choice, and the consequences i shall bear even if it kills me.
  nevertheless, in my case, even though she found him first, she’s lost him now. its like what they say, all’s fair in love and war.

  and anyway, trust me, karma will always find its way back to people. just like it did to me. =/

• 31. k0k  |  November 29th, 2008 at 7:25 pm

  I disagree.

  Banana bread
  is the best food on earth.

  I think I feel – felt – no. 11. Several times in my life. Everytime it happens, I feel adult – as if I can never grow up or get smarter anymore. Nowadays, I’m living like I’m in a low dose morphine haze. There are no more pain or problems; just observations that life is life.

  Happiness is always a choice :)

  Pretend you’re happy when you’re blue
  It isn’t very hard to do

  -Nat King Cole

• 32. Honeybunny  |  November 29th, 2008 at 8:20 pm

  10.
  there is a sinister somberness
  hovering above my suede shoes
  i fear that
  i am not alone
  here in this room.

  ———————————————–

  This one shook me to the core. A long time ago, I always had this dreadful feeling that I wasn’t alone in my room. Sometimes I felt like something was watching me from behind… the tingling pulsations of nerves and rising ‘hair’ at the back of my neck….I never look behind me. Ever.

  One night…. as I turned off my computer, for some reason I stared at the black monitor screen. AND TO MY HORROR, AS I LOOKED CLOSELY AT THE REFLECTION OF THE BLACK SCREEN, I SAW, I SAW.

  My mom. Peeking by the door. Quietly…’good night’.

  :’(

• 33. kei  |  November 29th, 2008 at 9:48 pm

  5.
  i am angry
  at you, the one careless and thoughtless constant in my life
  at you, the conniving little bitch
  at you, who sold me out
  at you, who forgot my birthday. so now i’ve forgotten yours too
  at you, ruiner of plans
  at you, the presumptuous stranger i met for all of 15 seconds
  at you, myself

  i can relate with the “one careless and thoughtless constant in my life”
  i hate ittttttttttt =(( i duno why i cannot just discard that the person

• 34. kim  |  November 29th, 2008 at 10:40 pm

  Haha! No, thankfully my predator was not the last person on my mind. My other half was – I just imagined the horror on his face if he were to find out anything had happened to me. Plus, at the time, he was halfway across the world (LDR) and things were not ultra smooth sailing between us at the time, hence the being ashamed bit resonating with me :)

  As to my dodgy predator, while he was monologue-ing (saying that he wanted to be my friend, why was I being hostile, all he wanted was a hug and kiss – not kidding), I keyed in the pincode to get into my building, ducked in, shoved the door shut and ran for it. Going back to my apartment at night after classes became a constant fear for about a month afterward.

• 35. gypsy  |  November 30th, 2008 at 12:16 am

  I don’t know if there is one word to describe it but for safer guess, I will say, you’re having random mood swings all in one time?

• 36. linda  |  November 30th, 2008 at 12:37 am

  Mmmmm.. don’t know what to say but… “BIG HUGGGG!!!!” :)

• 37. linda  |  November 30th, 2008 at 12:37 am

  **BIG HUG*** Feel Better?

• 38. olivia  |  November 30th, 2008 at 12:43 am

  11.
  i feel it. i know it.
  everything that i’ve been doing
  up till today
  is all
  wrong.

  i think there’s always a moment when i feel like this. like as though every step or every decision i made is the wrong one which leads me here to think that i’m someone with no accomplishments whatsoever. that would make me a noone? :/ yeap that’s how it is.

• 39. zj  |  November 30th, 2008 at 3:14 am

  1.
  i cant
  think
  when you are
  screaming
  into my ear

  - My silence was the conversation :(

  2.
  if the subway was hijacked today
  and blown up
  and i die
  should i be ashamed that
  you were the last person on
  my mind

  - If that was me, it must have been because you were too important to be remembered.

  3.
  this week i learned that
  difficult things
  are a lot easier than
  i thought
  they would be

  -Frou Frou-Let Go

  4.
  cornbread
  is the best food on earth

  -My choice changes with the story beneath.

  5.
  i am angry
  at you, the one careless and thoughtless constant in my life
  at you, the conniving little bitch
  at you, who sold me out
  at you, who forgot my birthday. so now i’ve forgotten yours too
  at you, ruiner of plans
  at you, the presumptuous stranger i met for all of 15 seconds
  at you, myself.

  -My anger never last longer than 3 minutes so i dont know :(

  6.
  i am now
  clair de luneing
  it’s bringing me back to sunday afternoons
  at jean gan, reading
  and waiting for wm to finish her ballet classes

  -Familiar scent. New comfort. All the same.

  7.
  i will admit it
  i am possessive
  because i found him first
  or rather, he found me first
  if there’s any right person
  it’s not going to be either of you.
  you are merely on
  the periphery
  so back off
  back the fuck off

  -You are mine and i am yours. Let’s dance till forever. Is forever enough?

  8.
  yesterday when i was sleeping
  i had a dream
  there were trees and big glass windows
  larger than life
  then i woke up with a start
  and realized that i had just uncovered
  a very important part of my childhood
  the one where i was unafraid of
  dreaming
  or people
  i was unafraid of
  anything
  and all i wanted to do was climb the Faraway Tree
  ring bluebells
  and make blackberry tea out of
  paint

  -The waking part is always the hardest, because reality here we comes.

  9.
  the place with the trees and the big glass windows,
  by the way,
  is the Shangri-La hotel of the early 90’s
  i cannot believe how drastically different that place
  looked to me then, and looks to me now.
  back then it was a palace
  now it is a dingy hotel.

  -Just like a stranded memories and recylced reflection of something we though we could be and now that to think of it we will never reached there anyway because they dont exist, like a painting in the gallery.

  10.
  there is a sinister somberness
  hovering above my suede shoes
  i fear that
  i am not alone
  here in this room.

  -Make a distance that you needed then.

  11.
  i feel it. i know it.
  everything that i’ve been doing
  up till today
  is all
  wrong.

  - I am an art student who struggles my passion with the entire community, esp parents. Its like running with an invisible rhythm and dont know when we hit the clouds. You just needa breathe deeper i guess.

  Take care Su Ann. This was a great read. :)

• 40. mystique  |  November 30th, 2008 at 4:34 am

  i identify with 1 2 and 3……………

• 41. teohsf  |  November 30th, 2008 at 4:43 am

  well guess you have found a way to relieve your hatred towards someone.

• 42. melissa  |  November 30th, 2008 at 5:24 am

  well, with reference to no.3 – I re-evaluated my principles to gauge whether or not I should go with the flow. sometimes my principles change – other times they don’t.

  and when they don’t change – It isn’t easy to be the different one. but I learned the hard way – I’d rather not compromise my principles than to be accepted by someone else or others. – it is not worth it. it leaves me drained and empty, and so ashamed of myself.

• 43. hui wen  |  November 30th, 2008 at 5:27 am

  I was at the jean gan in DU! The DU one was the original HQ, but they later expanded to phileo… Are there any other branches? What about you!!

• 44. martian  |  November 30th, 2008 at 8:30 am

  shangri la hotel:
  dingy monstrosity and
  ID malfunction

  not sure what you’re feeling from the post but definitely poetic and god forbid, making others feel the same

• 45. pinkpau  |  November 30th, 2008 at 11:34 pm

  cloudyrainbows : we seem to be talking abt different situations, but i agree with you that we sometimes fake confidence. not necessarily a bad thing though.. it’s just a means to an end. concessions have to be made in the interest of personal development sometimes :)

  nat : haha sorry but no, your guess is pretty far from the truth. and i asked if you could relate.. not if you can figure out what’s going on :)

  sweatlee : actually you’re right, i was 13. haha. and 14. it was a comforting time for me too..i got a lot of reading done. and i relished the quiet time alone being surrounded by sounds of piano music and the symphony of ballerinas’ steps. nowadays i’m way too fidgety to sit down and read just for an hour…

  grouchy : would you like the one hounding my life right now? pleeeease take her off my hands

  jane doe : what abt them?

  xiao : with regards to your number 5.. i think true friends are like ‘the ones’… they drop in our lap when we least expect it :) when we search, expectations and the aggression of the search get in the way sometimes. have replied your mail !

  dolphyn : hmm. in such circumstances, the karma is usually a big irremovable stain. unfortunately :(

  k0k : long time no see :) i was wondering where you’d disappeared to!

  honeybunny : HAHA aiyo your mom’s so cute

  kei : they’re placed there to make us stronger and more tolerant :)

  kim : pls get pepper spray T____T

  gypsy : i guess…

  linda : thank u :)) huggs

  olivia : i feel like that too from time to time.. but i think it’s the perfectionist in us being obsessive compulsive. are you a perfectionist? well regardless.. every single person alive makes an impact on the world; it’s only a matter of how big and whose lives we touch. if what you’ve done feels like it isnt enough.. then lucky for you that your actions in life are completely and totally up to you to decide on :)

  zj : haha you are emo just like me. btw, hold on fast to that artistry and passion of yours :) dont be afraid to bend society.

  mystique : really? how so?

  teohsf : not quite

  melissa : good :) principles = everything.

  hui wen : starhill !

  martian : very nice haiku baby. despite the bad ID, pooch still likes to hide under the beds in shangri la. bebe if you google my full name you will find that i won a haiku-writing competition when i was 9 years old. but actually it was not me. it’s this girl with the same name (exact same spelling) who went to the same school as me. haha but i shall tumpang glamour. eh i wasnt feeling poetic la! ppl say oredi it’s not a poem!!! i was just lazy (and too emo) to write in loping sentences

• 46. madeline k.  |  December 1st, 2008 at 1:20 am

  yea i can identify with some of the parts in this post.

  2.
  if the subway was hijacked today
  and blown up
  and i die
  should i be ashamed that
  you were the last person on
  my mind

  -i have no idea on why that person was even on my mind

  5.
  i am angry
  at you, the one careless and thoughtless constant in my life
  at you, the conniving little bitch
  at you, who sold me out
  at you, who forgot my birthday. so now i’ve forgotten yours too
  at you, ruiner of plans
  at you, the presumptuous stranger i met for all of 15 seconds
  at you, myself.

  -lets all try not to be angry so that we do not grow old and have wrinkles that fast. =)

  *hugs*

• 47. ap  |  December 1st, 2008 at 1:39 am

  i thought 2 was a symptom of unrequited love

  can we control our thoughts i wonder

• 48. lishun  |  December 1st, 2008 at 5:12 am

  re: “poem” no.1

  i go deaf whenever my best friend sits next to me in my car. it’s not always my driving that elicits screams from her, i think she’s just an excitable person. i seriously think i have impaired hearing in my left ear now. haha. but i still love her. =)

• 49. Anonymous  |  December 1st, 2008 at 6:28 am

  although i cant really undestand all of the 11 “stanza’,but i think u might now miss the familiarity very much… do you ?

  and something that affects your thoughts is happening around you, isn’t it ? coz u seem to think a lot, which leads to the kind of overwhelming feelings in you…

  erm… oh well, that was i thought of… haha…
  btw, do u read “Tuesdays with Morrie before” ? maybe u can find some answers in the book… a profound book which i love very much…

• 50. Aurey  |  December 1st, 2008 at 9:03 am

  This is one of the most interesting things I have had the pleasure of reading in a while and I can relate to a few of them. First time commenter but definitely not the last after this one post. Thank you for sharing.

• 51. colin  |  December 1st, 2008 at 10:22 am

  su,
  your mind seems to be all over the place. your posts has always made me look at my own life and understand that all of us are different as well as the choices we make. you only live once and the mistakes are for us to make and to learn something out of it. Try reading ‘the monk who sold his ferrari’ by robin sharma. it has helped me through difficult periods. take care. dont think about unhappy thoughts too much, it serves no purpose.

• 52. yosie  |  December 1st, 2008 at 11:56 am

  1,3,11

  i disagree with 4 but i’m assuming your thanksgiving was good with your cornbread and all. i had an un-american thanksgiving consisting of asian food (but then again we’ve never really put any effort into making the big meals).

• 53. dainbramaged  |  December 1st, 2008 at 3:14 pm

  1. need space, too much input is mind-fucking – tolerance and compromise comes in handy. if all else fails, take a short vacation
  2. question of importance over dissappointment and doubt – yours to decide, pros VS cons. but when the shit hits the fan, really, thoughts wont be an issue to sulk about
  3. effort needed to accomplish goals- nothing is impossible, the sky is the limit
  4. simple yet perfect – nothing is perfect, look for the best in others
  5. emotions in control – think logical, think before you act. fools rush in
  6. peace of mind – maintaining your passion will keep you on the go
  7. frustration – things wont always go the way you want. put up a fight, and never give up
  8. dreams from the past – may come true in the future. given enough vision, knowledge and effort
  9. changing environment – nothing physical lasts forever. neither people nor objects. adapt to changes. keep what you want and discard the unwanted
  10. paranoia – put those shoes on. face your fears and challenges
  11. fucked-over – hit the restart button, its never too late

  correct me if im wrong. just general feedback on your work based on what i have interpreted as i have no personal knowledge on your thoughts or experiences. cheers

• 54. k0k  |  December 1st, 2008 at 7:40 pm

  Oh, was just trying to re-settle down in Malacca after 2.5 years in India :) Been playing tour guide a lot to my classmates, since our half-campus is in my hometown and all.

• 55. Rachelle  |  December 1st, 2008 at 11:04 pm

  I agree with #4… to an extent (I wouldn’t call it ze best food ever but it is pretty darn good)! xD
  Even if a number of my friends think it is disgusting.. I think otherwise. =D Cornbread is yums!

• 56. joe  |  December 2nd, 2008 at 9:31 am

  you know suann,
  i dont have to agree with what you say,
  but i think you should try writing a book,
  sounds quite cliche i know –
  but dont worry it wont get famous
  something you find paperback, in an old secondhand bookshop
  that you only get because the cover looked intriguing
  but as you read surprises you slightly
  like you watched your words take shape as you squeezed them out of your pen
  though not a long one make sure

• 57. olivia  |  December 2nd, 2008 at 1:04 pm

  i was a perfectionist few years back and then i became more laid back so now it’s okay. thank you suann you made me feel better :D

• 58. Ams  |  December 2nd, 2008 at 3:27 pm

  We all have times in our lives when everything seems out of our control, we feel vulnerable.. weak… and there are times when nothing seems to compensate for our shortcomings. I’m glad that I read this entry. I’ve come to realize that we all share something in common deep in the core. We all have the same needs. We are not alone as much as how we’d like to think we are. In the end we all will come to realize that love, pure love is all that matters. Everything else is a distraction

• 59. miss p  |  December 3rd, 2008 at 8:42 am

  your disjointed piece of work is an art, dearie. it expresses the imperfection of a human’s emotion. can never be expressed fully by words. i envy you, you have the ability of expressing it beautifully..

• 60. chareli  |  December 4th, 2008 at 1:03 pm

  i miss the Faraway Tree where blueberry tea was made from blueberry jam. i actually did attempt that.

• 61. Tyris Q  |  December 4th, 2008 at 11:46 pm

  Just something bothering me….

  1. there is something lurking in the very confined space of my apt. it feels like i’m not alone, even if i am.

• 62. rachel  |  December 5th, 2008 at 12:22 am

  I love this post so much. You write so beautifully! can identify with #8

• 63. liyuan  |  December 7th, 2008 at 2:08 am

  heartfelt.

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