The Adventures of the Spanish Scramble

December 6th, 2008

i like it when people think.
i like it when people assess.
and re-assess.
and understand.
and feel.
and conclude.
and decide.
and act.
i hate it when people are too lazy, or complacent, to think.

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it snowed tonight
i escaped from the pack to take pictures of snow
cos they wouldnt understand
i kinda just wanted to do more than stick my tongue out in the air and wave my arms around
so i walked around in the freezing air taking pictures of ice on top of cars
i felt pretty with the snowflakes on my eyelashes.
but now that i am indoors, my head really hurts

i wish…///
i saw three milo dogs today while i was out with kevin the beaver
kevin is so funny
we were on clinton street where the traffic wasn’t moving, and we were trying to pull out of the parking space
he got frustrated and said, “okay, it’s time for malaysian KURAP TACTICS!!!”
and barged his way into the traffic with hard-edged malaysian resolve
so funny. i laughed like crazy. he’s like so sohai
we went for pancakes at what is supposed to be the best pancake place in all of new york.
not bad. lived up to expectations
but i enjoyed the company a lot more

i insisted kevin go with me to clinton st because i wanted to go there with someone i love
and share the pancakes there with someone i love
cos i’ve got all these new york to-do’s that i wanna hold close to my heart
it’s a moments thing
don’t feel like explaining it, but i’m sure you all understand
actually there were lots of strange moments this weekend
i dont understand the way i feel anymore
it’s very scary
the most unexpected things upset me
and what i think will make me happy, no longer does
it’s just like when i saw //
i felt nothing. there was simply a vacuum in my head and i wasnt thrilled
i feel different now
i feel older

beaver, i miss you and your stupid blueberry analogies
will you come to my school tomorrow and study with me
and re-enact 2005 at the mango cafe near my house
where i said //
and it came true?
maybe if i make another prediction this time around
it will come true too.

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