it’s almost 7 in the morning here and my door is ajar, leaking the light of burning midnight oil and the sounds of thoughtful keystrokes. concerned floormates keep poking their head in and telling me to get some rest, but i dont have the heart to tell them that i’m actually not doing any work. i am, in fact, just sitting here eating nutella on crackers and looking up on wikipedia the process of getting leg cramps. basically just pretending that i’m busy studying for finals when i’m actually not. it’s an academic strategy of the highest degree; i dont expect anyone to understand. resigned sigh.

and to add to my growing list of pre-finals procrastinatory undertakings, guess what i just found! a whole bunch of photos from my yesteryears!!! when i was 15 and 16 or some tender age like that. i keep saying ‘2 years ago’ when referring to these pictures in conversation; for some reason i’m stuck in the notion that i’m only 18. but i’m not. i’m 20. so old already. resigned sigh again.

anyways, finding old pictures always calls for reminiscence. so here goes!:

#1 one chinese new year’s at sieutheng’s. man we all look so young

#2 one of kezanne’s annual poolside parties. come rain or shine or menstruation, when it’s kezanne’s birthday, everyone has to get thrown into the pool.

#3 a happy picture of jovann and me <3

#4 hahahaha! caught in the bathroom!

#5 sitting atop the elephant at british india. haha. wow i just realized i havent seen that pair of shoes since my mom stole them. it’s been YEARS!

#6 omg these red wall photos. i took them with vicnan. we dubbed this one the tampon ad photo

#7 vicnan is so tall that when he jumps, his head goes out of the frame

#8 see how tall he is!! i only come up to his shoulder

#9 trying to be one with the greatest love of my life: Ice Cream! tamtim took this photo, on one of the first few times we ever met. now we are like best bitch buddies. sigh, how time flies, tamtim. i remember a time you once called yourself Jak. and Artificially Verbose. and waxed lyrical about lomo cams. now you are soon to be a full fledged trader or credit risk whatever. i’m so proud of you <3

#10 ahh the bunch of us at the green pow wow, circa 2005. we’ve all grown and done so much in 3 short years. i can still remember all our pow wow jokes.. and all the stupid poses alvo taught us to do, hahaha. just look at him in that picture!!!

#11 this picture evokes some really strong memories for me. maybe cos it was the first and last time i was ever in my school’s bio lab. haha. gawd. i dont even remember what i used to do during lab hours… i think i just sat in class with the lights off doing crossword puzzles with waimin or some such. infinitely more engaging than bio lab.

#12 HAHAHAHA SOHAI BETUL

#13 o.m.g Short Brother used to be so cute. why now not cute anymore T___T

#14 ooh i remember this. this was at Cheer 2004 or 2005, which was pretty much an annual ritual for me. i even went to watch the competition in the years after graduating high school. that’s aira and me with farah, who was in the St Mary team

#15 this, folks, is Rockstar. AZLAN WHERE DID YOU PUT ROCKSTAR

#16 a bunch of us girls during a student exchange to Seoul. wow we really do look so young. christine looks so cute with bangs!!

#17 hahaha we were falling asleep on the loooong train ride from downtown Seoul back to Banghwa where we lived, so stupid Elliot decided to mock us by sleeping on the floor. i’ve lost contact with everyone i met in Seoul, including Elliot. quite sad :( ah, the days before the advent of facebook and friendster!

#18 loooong ice cream for RM2 in Myeongdong. sigh look at those girls :) they hosted us when we went to Seoul. i’m sure they’ve all grown up into fine young ladies by now.

#19 once upon a time, Ivan and i were actually capable of taking normal pictures. this is us in front of the Lion King set at Cempaka. in ivan’s defense, he doesnt always dress up like a priest; he was playing the violin for the orchestra of the Lion King musical!

#20 hahahaha this is what we did to ivan on his 17th birthday. with chocolate brownies!

#21 oh my. i’m getting vivid memories of those glorious cakes… sigh. raya in malaysia rocks big time

#22 azlan and i at my 2nd fav starbucks! this is the one in mont kiara, where i used to go and study for SPM because it was the -only- starbucks in the klang valley that’s open 24 hours. and even that’s only on weekends.

#23 i heart azlan cos he always layans me when i want to take stupid photos. azlan i miss you T___T please stay in london over winter break…

#24 one christmas eve with the gang. i think we cooked dinner that night… did we? what did we cook though?!

#25 sieutheng and i. sieutheng i love you! why are we not putting the webcam i gave you that year to good use

#26 hahahaha such children we are. though i’m pretty sure we would do the exact same thing right now if we were all in mid valley at midnight and there was a big beautiful CNY center-court feature..

#27 pinkpau and the pinkpau!

#28 and this is my desk at home. actually, two desks ago. looking at this picture is making me sad that i’m not going home for winter break. when i packed to come here, i left a lot of things behind because i thought i would be back in december and could bring the stuff over then. things like.. framed photos of me and my friends and family, all my books, my socks and scarves, my toy ducks, my curtains.. and my heart. now i’ll have to wait another 6 months before i can go back and get all those things. haih.

ahh, years gone by. when i have time, perhaps over winter break, i wanna share some of the best stories from those years of my life. but for now, it’s back to the books for me! wish me luck for my finals, folks :( i’m gonna need it.