hello. i am sitting on a blue couch listening to the cinema paradiso theme song and facebook surfing. it is 2.48 a.m here in london, though i’m fairly certain that the timestamp on this post says 9.48 p.m, which is new york time, which i can only remember how to count back to after a moment’s hesitation. having said that, i do miss new york. i also miss KL. and i miss hong kong. and singapore as well, strangely enough. and now that i’ve just come back from barcelona, i miss it too. i also realize, with some heartache, that i will miss london when i return to college in a week’s time, and that i will want to be nowhere else but here. is this why i’m always absent, because i leave behind pieces of myself everywhere i go? it’s true isn’t it – i’m binary fissioning my way into nothingness. soon, i will be spliced so thinly that i will cease to exist as a whole individual. i will instead be living many separate lives in different countries across the world – each piece of me sprouting legs and hands, becoming their own entity, each undertaking their own daily grinds, learning, growing, living, never to meet each other again.