In the Northeast
April 29th, 2009
as i ascended the stairs hurriedly, late as always, i heard the sound of laughter leaping forth from the open doors. it was a brief symphony that rose and ricocheted into the hallway, swirling up into the ceiling, striking my heart suddenly. oh my, i turned around and smiled. doesn’t that sound so adult? we’re all adults now… in that suspended moment there on the stairs, i felt like Mrs. Darling, hand in hand with Mr. Darling, leaving behind Wendy, John and Michael to tend to some party that was unwritten about because it was so adult and had no place amongst mermaids and red indians. this is that party; this is that grown-upness that for so long i had only looked at the knees of. only my parents and their friends used to laugh like that. what happened to the interstice? this feels like a second adolescence, and we’re all on this uncomfortable, taut brink of madness that we don’t quite know how to manipulate yet.
**
and then there was: silicon valley! tube top! boris yeltsin! cheesecake! very famous actress! we tumbled over each other like dominoes as we raced against time. did you know i wished you were there? we would have giggled together at how cute the techy boys were (the key above control!), and shared occasional secret nods. nevertheless, it was one of those milky, sleepy nights. curling up in bed with andrew was nice for however long it lasted, and infinitely a better way to spend an hour than taking drunken pictures of ourselves in lingerie out in the hallway. our dreams are made out of real things, like a shoebox of photographs with sepia-toned loving / love is the answer. dancing to barbie girl with queen suet was, of course, a big naive bubble of layan diri laughs, as was singing off-key to jiwang songs. i keep thinking we’re all 18, but we’re not, and we’re quite old, our lives all sewn in with respective traumas, unfulfilled goals, unrequited love, struggles, archenemies, unfinished papers and indecision. these things orbit our heads like weary moons still, but it’s nice to know that collectively we can dust these things away. it’s a good kind of peer pressure.
**
imperceptibly, one of the organizers winced as the sound system died again and that dull clicking sound in the audio resurfaced in 10 second intervals, and she quietly looked to the side of the room for help. i can never refrain myself from studying an event’s organization; i always have to look at the hardware they use, the size of the canopies, the catering company and florists, the corporate sponsors, the division of labor, the type of cloth, the type of paper, the fonts, the crowd management — vestiges of being in love with event management during high school and college days, i suppose — but most of all, i like to look at the organizers. so as we all sat there with that 10-second clicking sound hitting the thick air over and over again, i marveled at how calm the organizers were. they were so held together. if this tech disaster had happened to me, i would have been angry and flustered, at nothing or anything at all, and i would have been the last thing from calm, and it would have shown. where do people find calm? is there an oasis that you will hit if you tunnel deep enough into yourself, or do you have to be born with it?
**
it was quick and rough. the lobster fried rice was delicious.
**
okay lahhhh some pictures of the weekend at Yale before you folks accuse me of not blogging ‘properly’ :P most photos are from Carol:
#1 a disheveled me and emoyoon with hummingbird cupcakes!!! which, btw, i’ve actually grown quite sick of :|
#2 me and queen suet! i’m trying to think of a funny thing that she said that weekend (cos she said many funny things) but i dont remember any now…
#3 jeremy -_-
#4 nick -_-
#5 a more handsome nick!! mwaks.
#6 chern han looking hamsap
#7 we sang random malay songs like setia, kau ilhamku and belaian jiwa!! so nostalgic…
#8 joe doing his thing on the guitar
#9 with joe. so this guy writes poetry, sings, plays guitar, is studying philosophy… i mean srsly!
#10 DOM <3
#11 hahaha i just had to put up this pic of andrew. he’s not actually sneezing… he’s making his stupid malaysian food orgasm face -_-
#12 the crowd during a panel session. wish you were here, chen chow!!
#13 we made jeremy turn to the side and take a picture with us cos his profile looks so much like wai kin! except not really la in this picture.
#14 hahaha damn stoopid this two. this is their attempt at imitating the Twilight poster shot
#15 i love you <3
Entry Filed under: College Life, Events, Photos
51 Comments Add your own
1. kiasu andrew | April 29th, 2009 at 11:16 pm
lza <3 lsa 2
2. kennysia | April 29th, 2009 at 11:20 pm
pinkpau you look so grown-up already!
should be renamed bigpau.
3. kiasu andrew | April 29th, 2009 at 11:20 pm
and we are 18!
4. sweatlee | April 29th, 2009 at 11:43 pm
ah, joe.. *dreamy eyes
joe, i know poetry too! pen merah pen biru, you marah i love you! wtf
su ann, 15 days!!!!!!!!!1
and malay songs roxxor
5. Michelle | April 29th, 2009 at 11:49 pm
Pinkpau, you look older… Or is it just me?
And you’re blogging the same way you blogged last time. With all the asterisks that would mark a different posts.
6. kiasu andrew | April 30th, 2009 at 12:33 am
emoyoons hair quite nice in the jeremy picture!
7. SS | April 30th, 2009 at 12:42 am
Hi Su Ann, this is my first comment ot you ,
but I have been checking up your blog sometimes ago , anyway nice blog , keep it up!
from SS
8. SS | April 30th, 2009 at 12:44 am
opsii, typo error.. “to” :)
9. ShaolinTiger | April 30th, 2009 at 1:39 am
Why got half naked guy, I WANNA SEE HALF NAKED COLLEGE GIRLS.
I hereby complain.
10. fern | April 30th, 2009 at 1:46 am
Gosh, i didn’t recognize you in picture #2 O.o
Oh, did you hear? Krispy Kreme has landed in Malaysia! =) yet to go and try. Starbucks baristas get discounts! :D
11. charlenediane | April 30th, 2009 at 2:34 am
Su Ann, you are so getting prettier and prettier everyday! Jealous!
12. PinkPaperPlane | April 30th, 2009 at 2:43 am
Hey when I first saw the “Twlight” pic I immediately thought of Twilight before I read your caption. So must be a pretty good impersonation then. :)
13. skyler | April 30th, 2009 at 4:23 am
why you so pretty!
14. KY | April 30th, 2009 at 5:21 am
wah why so happening wan!
15. bs | April 30th, 2009 at 5:41 am
Hahaha malaysian food orgasm face!!! i can totally understand!! i just had nasi lemak, roti telur, apam balik, nasi briyani, curry puff tonight in sydney!!! OMGGG BLISS. <3
16. Mabel | April 30th, 2009 at 5:47 am
Looking really beautiful. Hehe…and love your black top. The Twilight photo is so funny. :D. Good luck with your finals and deciding your major
17. kreazi | April 30th, 2009 at 5:48 am
you know, my housemates and I used to use DOM to describe one of our friends – Dirty Old Man aka ham sap hahahahaahahaaha
18. D | April 30th, 2009 at 6:33 am
Hi. been ur silent reader for ages.
anyway i agree with kenny’s statement.
bigpinkpau..haha..so cute :D
u’re so mature and beautiful now :)
pls put more photos of ur recent self and recent activities? :):)
ps: who’s the hunk in #15? :p
19. carol | April 30th, 2009 at 9:08 am
i just realized i don’t have a pic of you with you from mf? wtf? T_________________T this needs to be remedied T_________T
so literally a BLOCK from where we stayed.. and we walked past it every day to get to yale… is this place called claire’s. dehrel brought me their strawberry banana cupcakes and they were love.
20. Voon | April 30th, 2009 at 9:06 pm
OMG andrew turns me on!!! *screams*
21. Voon | April 30th, 2009 at 9:10 pm
wow at joe! so talented!
22. emilyrox | April 30th, 2009 at 10:22 pm
pinkpaperplane-that’s because i’m awesome.
kreazi-oi! dom is not a dirty old man! dom is the bestest ever! second only to me. mmpfh.
D-that is not a hunk. that’s shortie andrew. his mother gives everyone permission to spank him.
**
ssg. faster come so we can go eat dimsum. all of today i walked around thinking of where to bring you go eat. make me damn hungry. stupid.
23. nat | April 30th, 2009 at 11:34 pm
hey there. you look very tired and it seems like you have lost weight! all the best though :D
24. carol | April 30th, 2009 at 11:39 pm
the key above ctrl was pretty damn awesome.
that, and the epic “WHAT’S THE NAME OF OUR THREE HIGH RISES!!”
lsa i love the way you wrote this entry. <3
25. fatcat | May 1st, 2009 at 12:49 am
yaaaaa, why pinkpau so pretty one! zzzz. -jealous-
26. pinkpau | May 1st, 2009 at 1:13 am
kiasu andrew : <3
kennysia : haha college has aged me 20 yrs in just 1 year.
kiasu andrew : that would be very nice.. i would love to go back to being 18. then u know what i would do? i would try harder to kick your butt at ESUM, MPH, IMPAC… etc.. :P haha no la. u know i love u
sweatlee : cant wait.. :(
michelle : it’s not just you; i feel like i’ve aged too. sigh.
SS : thank u!
shaolin tiger : ohhh behaveeee!
fern : haha yes i read about it a few months ago in an american newspaper. berjaya is set to completely americanize the malaysian palate now :P
charlenediane : aww thank u… :))
pinkpaperplane : haha bravo! i didnt recognize it…
skyler : no skylery im very tired :(
ky : why! u excited to see half naked guy ah!
bs : you’re making me salivateeeee
mabel : thank you :) it’s so sweet of you to say.
kreazi : HAHAHA! someone recently taught me a term for that too.. goldfish uncle?
D : haha aww thank u. the hunk is spoken for … BY ME. wtf. yea more pics when i actually take them and remember to upload them… the macbook doesnt ahve an SD card reader (my old pc used to) so now i never can find my external card reader… :|
carol : YES that has to changeeee
voon : hahaha voon dont make noise
emily : we will be there sooooooon. cant wait srsly. my soul cannot take anymore of collegeee
nat : haha your comment made my day!! even if u said i was tired :P have u heard of the freshman fifteen? i think i’m very almost reaching that…
carol : OMG u know what was sad — the fact that i actually KNEW the names of the three high rises.. and i dont even go to upenn..
fatcat : haha dont be jealous la :) not that pretty also!
27. sheon | May 1st, 2009 at 4:52 am
actually, contrary to what kenny says, i think you look younger. ok..its just me. but really, i really think you look younger in this bunch of photos.
28. Zeek | May 1st, 2009 at 8:30 am
nice pics Pau. but i think you need a tan?? you looked rather …. pale.
29. Jason | May 1st, 2009 at 9:07 am
haha..at kenny’s big pau comment..
Anyway you do look somewhat older already..I am like 22 but still look like a kid..lol..and oh ya..and I wouldn’t like to be in the guy in the last photo’s shoe. LOL! Evil pau.
30. emilyrox | May 1st, 2009 at 10:49 am
you know what’s even sadder? that i ALSO knew the name of the three high rises. and i also don’t go to penn.
we? does that mean you’re not staying with me then? ;)
31. carol | May 1st, 2009 at 6:31 pm
emily: haha no, what’s sadder is that you ALSO knew the name of the three high rises and you don’t only not go to Penn, you study in the bloody UK hahhahahahaha.
32. pinkpau | May 1st, 2009 at 7:16 pm
sheon : haha!! that’s a compliment… right??
zeek : i DEFINITELY need a tan after all these months of winter!
jason : hahaha the guy in the last photo is lovin’ the attention :P
emilyrox : of course we’re staying with u :P roborovski can sleep on the floor
carol : ya!!! hahahaha! at least i can say that i only know the names of the high rises cos i spent so much time deciding which dorm i wanted to live in when i thought i was enrolling at upenn…
33. vvens | May 2nd, 2009 at 12:53 am
i also think that you look younger in this set of pictures :)
ehh you dont want to have back your long hair?
34. yapthomas | May 2nd, 2009 at 6:26 am
ohh.. i met Andrew before.. hehehe
35. SS | May 2nd, 2009 at 7:33 am
hey, superstar, looks like u are bz to reply everyone here. :)
36. Sam | May 2nd, 2009 at 2:41 pm
Quaintlydotcom is back =)
37. pinkpau | May 2nd, 2009 at 2:48 pm
.net!!!!!!!
38. pinkpau | May 2nd, 2009 at 2:49 pm
vvens, yayy. actually i think looking younger is better than looking older… haha i dont know abt my hair — i feel like short hair suits me better but it’s sooo expensive to maintain it in the US! a cut is like USD 70? which comes up to something like RM 240. wtf.
yapthomas : everybody has met andrew before :P srsly
SS : huh?
39. emilyrox | May 2nd, 2009 at 8:45 pm
i just left the place a week ago marr…
eh you sure or not? i won’t mind if you don’t stay with me wan you know… i won’t take offence. haha… but if you want to you’re more than welcome to. but yea, roborovski have to sleep on the floor lorr. :(
if it were not exam season at the time you’re coming i can give you my room and go stay somewhere else… but don’t really want to disturb other people during exam season… :(
40. Ming | May 2nd, 2009 at 8:52 pm
su ann, you’ve definitely change a lot in terms of appearance. Prettier , i must say. :D
41. Chen Chow | May 3rd, 2009 at 10:13 am
Aw….. Su Ann, so nice of you still think of me during NMF… :) Yeah, I really wish I could be there with you all… So many familiar faces, names! :)
42. yosie | May 4th, 2009 at 2:30 am
su ann, super cute! actually might finally make a trip out to nyc this summer; know you’ve just been there for a year but any suggestions on where to EAT? haha
43. linda | May 4th, 2009 at 3:30 am
Ahaaaa you look prettier! Heheh good on you la
44. yee | May 4th, 2009 at 6:35 am
is dom from kk,sabah? looks very familiar hmph
45. please help these dogs... | May 4th, 2009 at 7:44 am
http://www.mycen.com.my/rescue/
46. Alison | May 4th, 2009 at 8:44 am
joe is like the dream bf almost every girl wants…the twilight pic is kinda working,haha
47. dom | May 4th, 2009 at 1:42 pm
ehh yee who are you? haha, yes yes i am from KK… hmmm :)
everytime i look at that “twilight” pic, i laugh because we made about twenty attempts before getting the right lighting and angle haha.. glad it looks “sort of” authentic :P
pinkpauuuuuu…….. let’s go have a fun cheras food fiesta (focusing on maluri!!) over the summer haha!!
48. dom | May 4th, 2009 at 1:48 pm
eh and i am not a Dirty Old Man!!! :)
49. carol | May 4th, 2009 at 3:32 pm
DOM: WHY YOU FORGOT TO CREDIT YOUR PHOTOGRAPHER HMPH
50. dom | May 4th, 2009 at 9:03 pm
ehh wait, i just uploaded and editing the entire post haha.. i wasn’t expecting anyone to see it yet… chill chill.. haha
51. curryegg | June 8th, 2009 at 1:01 am
Wow.. it has been some while I didn’t visit your blog. Glad to see such a happening moment of yours. You look gorgeous girl! ;)
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