Okay I Didn’t Last Very Long
June 22nd, 2009
everyone wants to see the pictures, or read about the happy, but i am not happy. i am not. i am chronically dissatisfied and the only way i can grate off all the resentment is if i write. will people stop lying to me? will they please stop calling me all the wrong names? i’ve been sitting here staring at the blinking cursor thinking furiously about something else to fill this post with, but there’s just nothing else that i want to say for now. but i know that in an hour i will want to abruptly ejaculate something. like how i’m misty eyed and heart broken and have this incredible urge to go for a swim. like how i’ve been sitting in Starbucks practically all evening trying to write an article but have barely budged ten words past my last word count.
i guess the ability to assert one’s existence with brevity and immediacy is why people like Twitter so much. but then i can’t tweet all these things without people grumbling that i’m flooding their streams or something incredibly new media douchebagey like that. every Wednesday or every Friday should be Many Short Blogs Day on quaintly.net — hopefully with a catchier name when i can get over my melancholy long enough to think up something more creative. at least then i will have my own space to write about short, random things. mobile 3G allows for the possibility. does that make me a new media douchebag too? songjun, sieutheng, rfoong, rchin, kenyen, eeyang … remember the days of pinkskyes when i would update every 10 minutes about the littlest and most mundane, vanilla things? i’ve missed that; i’ve missed the convivial symposiums we would have in my Snorcomments. i think i want to recreate that. and i kinda really want to bite something right now.
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1. Patricia | June 22nd, 2009 at 10:27 pm
then go do it! we love it all the same :)
2. vvens | June 22nd, 2009 at 10:53 pm
ah! i remember reading your pinkskyes too! just blog any way you like, i still love to read your blog although i’m really quiet in here :)
3. ShaolinTiger | June 22nd, 2009 at 10:57 pm
That’s what asides are for no?
4. yizhen | June 23rd, 2009 at 12:19 am
mmm. write anything you want, su ann. :) there’s a reason why this is called your blog and not theirs, no? and who cares bout them grumbling tht ure flooding their stream on twitter?! if they dont like they’ll stop following u. but chances are they like it. they’re just saying it for the sake of saying it. your readers who asked u to write happy thgs probably just want u to be happy. but take ur time and u’ll get there at your own pace. chin up kiddo! and write for yourself. its too hard n probably draining if u try to please everyone around u anyway.
*huggies*
5. nyrac | June 23rd, 2009 at 12:23 am
i’ll still read whatever it is that you decide to post. pinkskyes or quaintly or whatever it is.
6. Jason | June 23rd, 2009 at 12:43 am
Aiyoyo..it’s your blog..hehe..it’s up to you what you want to write or write when you feel like writing.. :p you don’t need to try so hard to please other people :) you are just writing for yourself and we just sibuk sibuk because it’s interesting.. haha..
I miss swimming..sadly i am sick now so i can’t go for a dip..
7. LennyTheLion | June 23rd, 2009 at 12:53 am
Be who you are and be true to yourself. Even silence represents you, your moment.
8. Michelle | June 23rd, 2009 at 4:11 am
Then maybe it’s time for change. :)
9. Waifon | June 23rd, 2009 at 4:35 am
ah pau when are we ampang people gonna meet up and have the best cheese naan known to mankind! and you are gonna leave the hood soon cos i read of your new bedroom? T_T it’s such a cool hood why are you even leaving yo.
i rmb your pinkskyes entries! so honest, fluffy and cute :D it feels like yaaaa… very vanilla-ey, feathery and flighty. not cute like ohai iz me wtf but like umm… aiya pokok pangkalnya very cute la okay. don’t be sad, go to steven’s corner if you’re still there and watch those anneh’s getting harassed for late milo orders or something. or go to the apartment to have some wicked dessert. eton’s mess, red velvet cake with the sweetest frosting evarr or their strawberry mint parfait <3
or you can just wait for emily to come back and she will amuse you with her guptaness wtf. mebbe it’s time for milo too cos it’s supposed to make your otak cerdas! im a twitard (twitter retard) so i don’t bother following anyone except for miley cyrus wtf but i still like your mcd frenchfries avatar. will see you when i see you! mwah! oh happy tuesday!! nothing, just felt like celebrating tuesday cos it’s cool to want to celebrate a tuesday.
10. St.FU | June 23rd, 2009 at 5:59 am
temporal matters of but fleeting moment.
11. KY | June 23rd, 2009 at 9:20 am
haiyah then put pictures of you sulking also can!
12. Shaun | June 23rd, 2009 at 9:32 am
*hugs*
Hope the skies clear for you soon, I’ll treat you to cupcakes and Old Chang Kee Curry Puffs next time you drop by in Singapore.
13. annant | June 23rd, 2009 at 9:56 am
just blog whatever is in your mind…we will still lurve to read it nonetheless ;)
14. mchllchn | June 23rd, 2009 at 5:24 pm
/syg you :)
15. cindy khor | June 23rd, 2009 at 7:20 pm
stay tough there gal… do something that you like to take your mind off those annoying pesky upsetting stuff… be with the people that you like and most importantly, keep cool…
16. sheon | June 24th, 2009 at 1:44 am
hey pinks. smile now :) everything starts with a smile.
17. anonymous | June 24th, 2009 at 9:00 pm
take care.
18. LJY | June 24th, 2009 at 9:06 pm
hug
19. xiao | June 25th, 2009 at 12:11 am
i wish i could read your pinkskyes blog!
20. Adrian C | June 25th, 2009 at 12:42 am
i miss reading this blog :(.
21. Victor | June 25th, 2009 at 12:43 am
Hang in there, you’ll go through this period just as you did countless times before.
P.S: Will I see you at MSLS09? You were sitting right in front of me, but I never introduced myself. =p
22. joiz3 | June 25th, 2009 at 11:32 am
i’m sure all girls will understand how it feels like to be down, emo, in a bad mood, crappy etc. hang in there. go crazy with your friends! eat peanut butter off a spoon. :) hugs su ann. hope you’re feeling better by now. and if you really need to be reminded, all of us are totally in love with your writing, so no matter what happens, you’ll have readers appreciating your “work of art”. hehe.
23. andrea | June 25th, 2009 at 3:08 pm
i think i saw u at nirvana in bangsar on tuesday…i think it was u though i was not too sure…if u saw this girl looking freakishly at u with an unsure look on her face..that’s probably me.. =) u look good…keep writing! i love how u do it..
24. carol | June 25th, 2009 at 5:30 pm
lsa i also want to bite something. but not you la wtf.
come let me give you a lot of sayangs <3
25. pinkpau | June 25th, 2009 at 6:59 pm
patricia : i think i will! :) thank you for the vote of confidence.
vvens : haha do you remember intoxicated teens! and then i remember 2G also had its own forum…
shaolin : ya but to put asides i will have to write an actual post right? or do you mean sidebar asides…
yizhen : that’s great advice :) i know that people say that cos they want me to be happy, and i appreciate it. it’s just that everytime i’m happy these days i feel like reveling in it instead of blogging.. and the only time i sit at the computer to mope is when i’m sad. so… :P
nyrac : thank u :)))
jason : ya that’s always my problem. i always want to please everybody. when i was 15 i had this philosophy that it’s NOT impossible to please everyone, as long as you try hard enough and optimize your resources. haha. so foolish. unfortunately i still think like that.
lenny the lion : okay fess up :P who are you?! the real lenny would never say that. he’s a very cute and naive lion.
michelle : hahaha it’s really ironic that you said that! tell you why soon :P
waifon : waifonnnnnnn let’s meet SOON!!! i start work on monday and after that it’s going to be an eternity of me crashing right after work and only coming out to play on the weekends :( emily is back already!
stfu : that sounds like it should be on a japanese pencil case
ky : dont have!
shaun : promise? :) and i’ll treat you to the best ice cream in singapore!
annant : thank you :) that’s so kind.
mchlchn : :))) /accepts and sayangs back!
cindy khor : i’m going to do just that! :) transformers 2 tonight!
sheon : ya! that’s what i think too. i wish other people thought the same.
anonymous : how? :(
LJY : wugg
xiao : haha it’s password protected and under a 9-layer heavy lockdown :P sorry!
adrian c : what do you mean :(
victor : definitely :) might have to run off halfway though. say hi next time!!
joiz3 : thank you. you are so very kind. peanut butter off a spoon sounds heavenly… but have you tried peanut butter + apples? :)
andrea : haha! that was indeed me.
carol : SAYANG FEST!
26. Waifon | June 25th, 2009 at 10:38 pm
ya lah supposed to go eat nasi lemak with her tht day but she slept through the night! yaaaa soon! am i seeing you at urbanscapes! if you’re going, i will be there. if you’re not then mebbe not :( no budget ok 35 bucks. this year not really enticing except for the featured films and exhibition. and 133 vendors at the TiC area :p
27. MIchelle | June 26th, 2009 at 5:19 am
Would be glad to hear.
Can’t wait to go home soon.
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