THE Moments Of My Life, Part 2

i have it now.

The Happiest/Proudest Moment

today. about 11.15am.

Comments March 13th, 2006

THE Moments of My Life

The Happiest
eh, pending. i dont know why but i cant think of one right now.

The Saddest
the day after the one time i ran away from home.

The Most Afraid
April 2000, when my grandmother got a stroke and as a result had the left side of her body paralysed. my grandmother is like the best friend i never had, and she’s been by my side since the day i was born. we were really close, she lived with me and most nights we would lie in bed just talking the hours away. i remember when i got the news of her stroke, i was in school and i was just really really scared because no one knew if she was going to make it through the night. that night i went to visit her in the hospital, and i just couldnt take the sight of her wearing an oxygen mask, with tubes attached to her arms, a feeding tube up her nose and down her throat. it was just such a horrific sight and i wanted to puke. the first thing she said when she woke up and saw me was my name. then she said “we should have gone to have porridge together yesterday. see, now we will never have that chance again”. she thought she was going to die. and frankly, so did i.

The Angriest
let me tell you a story of this jerk ex-boyfriend i used to have! before we started dating, he had this girlfriend whom he was in an LDR with. yet at the same time, he had feelings for me. so one time while we were hanging out, he actually kissed me. so okay, very awkward lah kan. after the customary few days of avoiding the incident, we decided to talk about it properly. he was like, oh i kissed you cos i have feelings for you, and i have wanted to break up with my girlfriend for a long time already, just didnt know how, blablabla, give me some time, blablabla. so like a naive fool, of course i believed that. about a month later, i was feeling increasingly uncomfortable and grossed out, and i made him pick, so as to stop wasting our time. he later told me he had broke up with his girlfriend, and from her blog it clearly looked to be like that. BUT here’s the twist!!!!! you know what the idiot told her? “hey honey, can you please remove all traces of me from your blog, because my mother found your blog and she’s not happy about the relationship!”

wahlauweh. i tell you ah, the assholes i associate myself with. anyway i later went on to have a 2 year relationship with him. yea i know, what the hell was i thinking, right?

The Most Thankfully Surprised
yesterday!!!!!!!! i’m still reeling from the shock.

The Most Tulan (Annoyed)
August 2005. i was supposed to represent my school in this interschool public speaking competition, but a few days before the competition, i find out that it is to be postponed to 2 weeks ahead. sooo, that made the competition clash with my student exchange trip to Corea. since the latter was already set in stone, i had no choice but to withdraw from the competition and give my place to this junior. i was extremely extremely upset, because this competition meant a lot to me in ways i cannot explain to anyone who wasnt there in 2004. i was later told by my teacher that my replacement couldnt write her own speech, so she was to take mine (titled Differences and Diversity, one that i was very proud of), and present it as her own.

needless to say i wasnt exactly VERY happy about that, already being sore about the fact that i couldnt be there, and instead had to go to Corea with a bunch of people that i wanted to slap in the face. well anyway SOMEONE told my teacher that i wouldnt like having my speech taken (to this day i dont know who it was, i’m guessing it’s a schoolmate who reads my blog) so before i left he told me that the girl would write her own speech. i later find out he lied, and she went ahead and presented my speech anyway. Aira emailed me the second day i was in Corea to let me know the girl won 2nd place at the competition. wah! i was tulan like nothing else. then when i went back to school, that bloody ingrate never even had the courtesy to say ‘thank you for the speech’!

The Most Regretted
making out with that idiot at Atmosphere. and that other idiot also. ohmyGAWD. alcohol or none, still very, very, VERY stupid decisions. i believe that the closing down of Atmosphere is divine intervention towards the purpose of me not repeating this very dumb, very inebriated mistake.

The Most Stressed
the first few weeks of November. cramming in some serious last-minute studying for SPM whilst handling prom organizing aint no joke. i was so crabby and irritable all the time, and focusing on anything besides those two things was really really hard. i think i almost died.

The Most Self-Satisfied
losing the Taylors Debate to SMKDJ. haha i know it sounds really weird, to be self satisfied after losing, but i honestly WAS, cos we were better than them. and it felt good, despite the loss.

The Most Embarassing
seriously, nothing beats the time my acceptance speech when i went onstage to recieve my award during prom. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!! and no i’m not telling you what i said.

The Most Shocked
my first kiss with my 2nd boyfriend. it happened in a bus, of all places. i was like, omg, this is so not happening. hey actually come to think of it, my first kiss with my 4th boyfriend was pretty shocking too.

The Most Confused
this time last year when i wasnt sure whether i was being lied to. the truth didnt exactly matter, but i just WANTED TO KNOW!!! anyway turns out i wasnt being lied to. hahaha. i love how things arent always what they seem.

The Most Excited
RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SPM RESULTS ARE OUT TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!

please do wish me all the best :( i will soooooooo need it!

Comments March 12th, 2006

Oh, the gluttony.

i’m really, really, really, really hungry right now.

Comments March 8th, 2006

7 Things

*blink* i could have sworn i put this up already yesterday, and then replied Lalita’s and sieutheng’s comments … but now the post is gone, along with the comments. ??? God of Wordpress, are you messin’ with me?!

7 Known Things About You
1. i have low tolerance levels
2. i cant stand repeated sounds
3. i always gotta walk and sleep on the left side
4. i’m an avid skirt-wearer
5. i am NEVER on time for anything
6. i am the most siu hei person in the world
7. i overreact to a lot of things

7 Lesser Known Things About You
1. i am a uber worrywart
2. i hate asking people for favours
3. i appreciate really good pickup lines. the funny ones.
4. i make damn good brownies
5. i actually dont like my iPod
6. i never let anyone touch my computer
7. i sleep in the buff

7 Wishes
1. that my gym would extend their operating hours to accomodate insomniacs like me
2. that i had more TIME!
3. that poor children didnt have to beg
4. that my best friends would understand
5. that i can finish writing 2 speeches by tomorrow, omg
6. that i was less frigid .. this detached feeling sucks
7. that the circumstances allowed for more growth

7 Things You Like About Yourself
1. my height
2. my figure
3. my resilience
4. my shoe size?!
5. my ability to wrap my dad around my little finger, hahaha
6. my chameleonity
7. my ability to make friends really easily

7 Things You Dont Like About Yourself
1. my height
2. my figure
3. the fact that i. cant. speak. CHINESE!!!
4. i’m really judgmental
5. my tendency to spot patterns in people’s behaviour and then get really irritated at said patterns
6. the fact that i’m really picky. with anything.
7. i am just a little bit temperamental. just a little.

7 Things On Your Mind Right Now
1. tennis tomorrow?
2. how the hell am i supposed to finish 2 speeches in 2 days?!
3. singapore in march?
4. i think i shouldnt have said that.
5. need a laptop NOW
6. i wonder what would be a realistic expectation for my SPM results. (13th freakin March, people)
7. to go or not to go?

7 Things You Hope To Accomplish Soon
1. MY TWO SPEECHES, OMG
2. sign up for some language class (french?)
3. watch all the movies i was supposed to watch the moment SPM ended
4. decide what the heck i want to do in college and actually apply for college
5. get my diving license
6. and my driving license
7. go to melbourne and singapore and PENANG! (oh, booha!)

i’m gonna leave all the tagging at the playground. so anyone who wants to do this, do it! but do let me know of course, so i can go read :D

Comments February 27th, 2006

Chinese Astrology

although i dont really believe in them, i’ve always had this crazy fascination with things like horoscopes and astrology. when i pick up the newspaper, i always gotta check out my daily horoscope. sometimes in bookstores when i pass by the Astrology corner, i’ll just pick out a book and see what they have to say about Librans or Dragons — or if i’m seeing anyone, i’ll check out our astrological compatibility :D

on the whole, i’ve always thought i was very Libran. very Dragon too. the only thing i dont agree with is my Element — i’m an Earth Dragon, with Earth people being characters of Stability, reliability, practicality, industry, prudence. ahhaha :D if that isnt the most contradictory juxtapose ever, i dont know what is.

so anyway, my dearest aunt asked for my time and date of birth the other day just out of the blue, and when i did, she promptly emailed me a reading of my personality! here’s what it said :

A lover of the exotic, the Dragon is one of the most flamboyantly extrovert characters of the Chinese astrological calender. Elegant and with a good eye for spotting the latest trends, Dragon-types are always to the forefront fo the fashion scene, ever ready to adapt waht is a la mode to suit a very individual sense of style.

Dragons delight in any form of adulation, and both socially and in business they tend to seek out the bright lights. They are thus ideally suited to careers on the stage, but in general any sphere where there is close contact with the public provides a rewarding domain.

*****

i dont know, pretty accurate i think. i cant find anything in there that i disagree with. and dammit, now i know why the hell i couldnt marry a millionaire by the age of 16. CHEN SIEU THENG, this is all your fault!!!! what was i thinking, sitting beside a Rabbit for 4 years in a row?! you luck-sucker, you! i demand compensation. you’d better buy me dinner for all the years of bad luck you caused me!!!! rabbit’s foot being lucky, my … foot.

a 2nd email came in saying that i should not get hitched with partners when there’s an age gap of 6 years between us, as both signs are direct opposites in chinese astrology. therefore, the relationship will be tumultuous and we will both be one big bad clash and not have good sex. my direct opposite being the Dog, and the year 2006 being the year of the Dog, i was advised to go to a temple and offer prayers. well, i think i’ll pass, and just make do with avoiding all people born in the year of the Dog .. :D

anyhoo, my interest in astrology has been awakened, and so for the past hour i’ve been googling Astrology websites and just reading the same things over and over again. man i love this stuff. so basically they keep telling me that as a Dragon, i’m fiesty, fickle, stubborn, passionate, brave and conceited (!!). in the workplace, i am bossy and have high standards, and i do not work well in teams. very power-seeking too. financially, i’m impulsive and one helluva spender. in the love arena, i need attention all the time and i tend to dominate over my lover (yameh, i’m so docile lah).

link, link, link, link. and this one tells you your compatibility with other signs, and this tells you what your time animal is, according to your time of birth.

so, my best friends are apparently the Snake and the Rooster. RABBITS BRING ME BAD LUCK. Dogs are the enemy. and my lovers are the Rat and the Monkey! oooh. any Rats or Monkeys out there wanna get it on with lonely Dragon me? i promise i wont burn you.

Comments January 22nd, 2006